Venting Some days, I feel ok. Others not so much.

[I screwed up too bad]

Today, I feel like an absolute piece of shit. I wish I would not wake up tomorrow. If I just hadn't been so stupid, I'd be fine right now. I made some decisions that turned out really poorly. And my life is an absolute wreck. I had everything I needed. Now, I've lost almost everything I had. I don't know how to continue on knowing this was my fault. My own stupidity.

 

[Ghost2211]

I get stoned af on days I feel like that, and hope tomorrow is a better day. It helps me live another day. I can relate to this, hugs and love to you.

 

[Chupacabra 44]

Have you considered keeping a mood journal to try and identify the triggers as to your mood fluctuations?

I take a "nothing is random" outlook for myself and I actively observe cause and effect associations. Highly recommend considering this approach.

 

[I screwed up too bad]

Have you considered keeping a mood journal to try and identify the triggers as to your mood fluctuations?

I take a "nothing is random" outlook for myself and I actively observe cause and effect associations. Highly recommend considering this approach.

Thanks for this idea, Chupacabra. I'll try it. Although, I think if I could just fix something, I'd really start getting better. Sigh. I can only hope.

I get stoned af on days I feel like that, and hope tomorrow is a better day. It helps me live another day. I can relate to this, hugs and love to you.

Thank you so much, Rosey Bird.

 

[checkouttime]

you wouldn't believe how i was living /felt and position i was in 2-3years ago. rapid demise, and yes i also played a big factor in it aswell!!!!

 

[I screwed up too bad]

you wouldn't believe how i was living /felt and position i was in 2-3years ago. rapid demise, and yes i also played a big factor in it aswell!!!!

Did things get better?

 

[foxdie]

If only I could tell myself in January of this year I'd be here right now. I've made so many stupid decisions this year I feel I could have written this post. I feel you @I screwed up too bad

 

[checkouttime]

Did things get better?

not at all!!! it would take some serious effort to get it all back aswell!! i had a very good life, things are very different now

 

[I screwed up too bad]

If only I could tell myself in January of this year I'd be here right now. I've made so many stupid decisions this year I feel I could have written this post. I feel you @I screwed up too bad

This is me.

 

[foxdie]

This is me.

I was depressed before but it somehow seems so much worse knowing I could've avoided it by making different choices. At least we can be screw ups together on here.

 

[Blueman]

I relate to all this. I totally screwed up my nice life last year but didn't realise it until May this year.
I don't really get good or bad days I just get bad ones( not terrible).

 

[lobster salad]

For me everyday sucks... I wake up everyday and immediately start longing for the day to be over. Sure there are some good moments but they are always only temporary.... and last a short while, minutes every once in a few days, before it's back to the same boring shitlife that last eternities

 

[timeisnigh]

Accepting responsibility should be comforting. Google "internal locus of control"

my life is UTTER shit, and I'm not to blame in any way, shape or form. would you rather walk around with that on your mind?

 

[inflammed123]

Today, I feel like an absolute piece of shit. I wish I would not wake up tomorrow. If I just hadn't been so stupid, I'd be fine right now. I made some decisions that turned out really poorly. And my life is an absolute wreck. I had everything I needed. Now, I've lost almost everything I had. I don't know how to continue on knowing this was my fault. My own stupidity.

what did you lose? when i was 10 years younger i thought i ruined my life but that wasn't so. a year ago i thought my life was over, heck even a month ago. i stopped taking bupropion and things aren't as bad. are you on medications?

 

[Chupacabra 44]

I've been physically sick every single day for five years this December. It came on suddenly one night, couldn't breath well, could barely move, never went away. Had tests on my heart which didn't show anything.

Do you think perhaps it was a panic attack?

Do you think perhaps it was a panic attack?

Maybe coupled with lingering anxiety?

Do you think perhaps it was a panic attack?


Maybe coupled with lingering anxiety?

My apologies I'm running hypomanic, and I'm just trying to help.

Peace.

 

[inflammed123]

I've been feeling the same for a couple of months now, however I've been keeping a journal for a couple of years now and the only pattern is that I only start journaling when I'm in a depressed state and that fact that I feel that my thought and feeling are fake and not really valid , and I feel bad about being sad It's a very weird feeling , I don't know if anyone has experienced it

i'm sorry but what does that have to do with OP?

 

[I screwed up too bad]

what did you lose? when i was 10 years younger i thought i ruined my life but that wasn't so. a year ago i thought my life was over, heck even a month ago. i stopped taking bupropion and things aren't as bad. are you on medications?

Thank you! I left a really good job for an even better opportunity across the country. It didn't work out. We packed up our things and left. Now, he has returned back. I am here with my family trying to figure out what the hell happened in the place I grew up in, but haven't lived in 20 years. Now, I'm jobless, significant other less (maybe) and completely lost.

Do you think perhaps it was a panic attack?


Maybe coupled with lingering anxiety?



My apologies I'm running hypomanic, and I'm just trying to help.

Peace.

No, definitely. I just got medicine for panic and depression today. I hope they can help me.

Accepting responsibility should be comforting. Google "internal locus of control"

my life is UTTER shit, and I'm not to blame in any way, shape or form. would you rather walk around with that on your mind?

I'll take a look at that!