Social services told me to leave my house 😡

[TimetoGo!]

So long story short……I attempted to ctb two weeks ago by shallow water blackouts, but couldn't pass out and was dragged out.

Obviously put into the "system " now, and because I live with my wife and 13 yo stepson, social services have been round to my house and say im a "risk" to be around my stepson. Although I would never do anything to harm him and would never ctb if he potentially sees me.

So they have told me to leave, or he has to leave instead. So its always going to be me isn't it.

I don't have anywhere to go so I have had to book a hotel , which is expensive, and the whole reason im suicidal is because of debts from a business I lost.

So now on my own in a hotel room……it's disgusting from social services, it really is.

Has anyone else experienced this?

 

[GasMonkey]

Didn't you order Nitrogen+EEBD Hood? Why did you attempt shallow water blackout?

 

[TimetoGo!]

Didn't you order Nitrogen+EEBD Hood? Why did you attempt shallow water blackout?

Full intention is to order it mate, but the problem is where I get it delivered to. My wife is like the FBI!! I would of ordered it by now if i knew it wouldn't be intercepted.

I attempted SWB because I was desperate to go, I felt I could do it, particularly after a bottle of vodka straight and a bunch of nurofen. I just couldn't hyperventilate enough in time. I rushed it, stupidly. But I have read more about it now.

Im angry at myself for failing and all this starts with social services etc

 

[goblinperson]

How did you lose your business? What were you working with?

 

[TimetoGo!]

How did you lose your business? What were you working with?

I wont go into what business it was but it came mainly due to covid, staffing issues/replacement of important staff and then cash flow.

I have since started a new business, in an economic crisis/cost of living crisis, which has made it harder

 

[heartbroken12]

Sounds like you are really up against it, a recent failed attempt would be enough to deal with on its own. Don't know what to say but I'm sorry this is happening to you.

 

[TimetoGo!]

Sounds like you are really up against it, a recent failed attempt would be enough to deal with on its own. Don't know what to say but I'm sorry this is happening to you.

Thank you