makethepainstop
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- Sep 16, 2022
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I am so tired of pretending that everything is just so wonderful to the rest of the world. It feels like I have to put on my strong tough guy, I'm doing just peachy face every day. Does anyone else feel like this? It's almost like everyone in the whole damn world insists that I must pretend to be ok. Well here is my forbidden and unspoken truth, I am hurting badly. Ok world, Y'all got that I am not just totally fine and wonderful. Matter of fact world I am miserable and I can promise you that I am wretched as well. It is damn tiresome to keep my smiley face on. I am alone with no damn friends. Is anyone else in this same boat? NO boyfriend, no friends at all.
You can't tell a soul about how you feel for obvious reasons. I feel like I run a program, the yes I am perfectly fine I am doing great program. Each day it gets a little more difficult to keep the illusion running, til one day I believe I will terminate all programs I have running. Ever feel like you want to just start screaming and never stop? When one is so unwise as to discuss or divulge your feelings, you get the "Just go get some antidepressants, that will fix you right up." BS God why are so many of us cursed this way? Ok rant over thanks for letting me rant. Love.
You can't tell a soul about how you feel for obvious reasons. I feel like I run a program, the yes I am perfectly fine I am doing great program. Each day it gets a little more difficult to keep the illusion running, til one day I believe I will terminate all programs I have running. Ever feel like you want to just start screaming and never stop? When one is so unwise as to discuss or divulge your feelings, you get the "Just go get some antidepressants, that will fix you right up." BS God why are so many of us cursed this way? Ok rant over thanks for letting me rant. Love.