it's_all_a_game
I remember...death in the afternoon...
- Nov 7, 2020
- 356
I'm suffering from money problems, wistfulness, ennui, etc. right now, and I can't take it any more and might ctb as soon as my mom gets another job...anyway, I just want to rant about how I feel at this very moment. I'm tired of being lonely due to how I've been mistreated over the years, pushing me into being alone because I'm afraid of how bad others will treat me. I'm tired of most art these days being garbage (I'm stuck listening to music made 39 years ago because today's pop & rock is trash.) I'm tired of how superficial and shallow today's society is, and how it's impossible to truly connect with anyone nowadays, because the values I cherish are completely different from those of contemporary society. I'm tired of longing to live inside fictional stories because the world of make-believe has the beauty, meaning, and charm that this ugly, painful planet lacks. I'm tired of folks being rude, cruel, and arrogant, as well as people saying "Grow the fuck up and deal with it!" if you dare to complain about it (nice victim blaming, right there). I'm tired of worrying about money constantly; eff capitalism, what a shit system it is and those who defend it are a joke. I'm tired of everything. I just want to be gone and leave this crappy world behind. I'm just done.