So my bus is coming

[Mloureiro]

Thank you so much for all your support, thank you so much for all the love this forum has. Thank you moderators and thank you community but I am tired and finnaly realized I am not important at all. To anyone, I am leaving tonight, Lisbon time, at between 1 and 2 am, no goodbye notes as I realized no one deserves it. Only my parrots and they know I am distraught and that I love them, with all my heart. As for mt children, the ones that kept me here, are to grown to care. Just listened to their father saying I worth nothing and not a word and even left with him. They are 20 and 14, so not lids anymore. And finnaly, it is more important to die than to leave, all my SN gear has been prepared since October, time to catch the bus, Stan's style. Thank you all. Take care, you are the only who know I won't be here tomorrow, if all goes well. And it will, the Universe owns me that. Farewell my friends...

 

[Soul]

@Mloureiro, I'm sorry about everything that's led you to this. I hope your decisions will have the best outcomes for you. Journey well x

 

[HorribleFeelings1]

Hope you have a peaceful journey! Just know that we actually do care. Much love and support sending your way

 

[Skyview]

Sometimes the tiredness is overbearing, journey well and find your tranquility

 

[rolltheblunt]

Good luck Mloureiro.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I'm so sorry for all your pain and suffering. I just want you to know that I care.

 

[Mloureiro]

I'm so sorry for all your pain and suffering. I just want you to know that I care.

Well, the only one that does without even knowing me. Thank you so much....

 

[MsMaudlin]

Thank you so much for all your support, thank you so much for all the love this forum has. Thank you moderators and thank you community but I am tired and finnaly realized I am not important at all. To anyone, I am leaving tonight, Lisbon time, at between 1 and 2 am, no goodbye notes as I realized no one deserves it. Only my parrots and they know I am distraught and that I love them, with all my heart. As for mt children, the ones that kept me here, are to grown to care. Just listened to their father saying I worth nothing and not a word and even left with him. They are 20 and 14, so not lids anymore. And finnaly, it is more important to die than to leave, all my SN gear has been prepared since October, time to catch the bus, Stan's style. Thank you all. Take care, you are the only who know I won't be here tomorrow, if all goes well. And it will, the Universe owns me that. Farewell my friends...

Surrounding you with love and strength for your journey ahead, may it be as peaceful as possible.

Also I care, we all care ❤

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

Wishing you a peaceful journey hugs

 

[Sk1n1M1n]

You will find your tranquility

 

[Jean4]

We are here for you if you want to talk. You won't be alone. Sending you love and peace.

 

[Mloureiro]

Thank you all. From the heart...

 

[Jean4]

Thank you all. From the heart...

Is there anything we can do for you?

 

[xBrialesana]

There's over 49 people currently in here for you. You sound very calm and set in your decisions, which is nice. Nothing is final yet, but when it is I'm sending all the love and peace and comfort. I'll be on all day. Your peace will be in my thoughts

 

[TAW122]

I'm sorry to hear that life has dealt you a shitty hand. I wish you peace and best wishes in your decision.

 

[Mloureiro]

Is there anything we can do for you?

Oh Jean, I wish, but no. I just wish I could do it right away, but I know, need to wait,.I am just glad I am alone right now. I won't be alone when I do it so I decided that 1/2 am will work, I hope. Also the husband will find me, he deserves it, after 2 decades of making me feel useless...
Like you always advise, if the pain overcomes everything, it is time... Thank you for all you have done in the last couple of months for so many people.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

Where ever your path takes you next, I pray it's the right one for you, where ever that may be, I wish you peace

 

[LegaliseIt!]

Peace and light as you journey forward.
Be kind to yourself.

 

[Mloureiro]

There's over 49 people currently in here for you. You sound very calm and set in your decisions, which is nice. Nothing is final yet, but when it is I'm sending all the love and peace and comfort. I'll be on all day. Your peace will be in my thoughts

Thanks, I am not calm at all, I am just so tired of being neglected and hearing that I am not nothing, after raising two kids almost by myself while struggling with shores and 12 hours away from home, put me over the edge. And thanks to all 49 of you out there, wish you were here. It is hard to feel so lonely, even with people around. Maybe I am really nothing, won't make a difference after I am gone...

 

[Broken Chimera]

I hope it works out for you. And as you already saw, we care about you. My inbox is open if you want to talk.

 

[Mloureiro]

I hope it works out for you. And as you already saw, we care about you. There's 50 people in here rn. My inbox is open if you want to talk.

Thank you, it is hard to open up. I bottle all up inside, I don't even know how to open up...

 

[Jean4]

Oh Jean, I wish, but no. I just wish I could do it right away, but I know, need to wait,.I am just glad I am alone right now. I won't be alone when I do it so I decided that 1/2 am will work, I hope. Also the husband will find me, he deserves it, after 2 decades of making me feel useless...
Like you always advise, if the pain overcomes everything, it is time... Thank you for all you have done in the last couple of months for so many people.

We will be here for you. Like I say. I'm not going to stop you, and will be with you... and it's ok to change your mind.

The pain has overcome everything. You said the magic words. However, Jean wouldn't be Jean if she didn't say, it's ok to change your mind and I don't want you to go. ;)

Thanks, I am not calm at all, I am just so tired of being neglected and hearing that I am not nothing, after raising two kids almost by myself while struggling with shores and 12 hours away from home, put me over the edge. And thanks to all 49 of you out there, wish you were here. It is hard to feel so lonely, even with people around. Maybe I am really nothing, won't make a difference after I am gone...

I understand the feeling. However, I disagree. You are part of our screwed up family here. You do matter to us, and you are not nothing to us.

 

[Lucifer'sRight]

i hope it will go easily ands smoothly. i'm sorry you couldn't make it in this life. don't be afraid, nothing bad will happen to you on the other side,

 

[Root]

I wish you peace!

 

[Mloureiro]

Thanks Jean, I do hope I won't change my mind. And I do feel useless and nothing right now. I gave my all to this 3 people and means nothing...As I have waisted my life, migjt as well end it and stop the pain

 

[Flump]

Have a peaceful journey, we are here with you

 

[Ghost2211]

I want you to know you are important and valuable to me, and this group. If you change your mind we will be here with open arms. You are never truly alone if you have us <3

May your journey be swift and peaceful.

 

[Apathy79]

Your story is very touching just reading through some of your earlier posts.

It sounds like your husband has been cold for a while so him saying that isn't completely surprising. I wouldn't take your kids silence as them believing it. Especially your son. It must be conflict avoidance. Whether they acknowledge it out loud or not, they must be aware of what you have done and continue to do for them.

If tonight is the end, I hope you leave knowing your kids love you, even if they have trouble showing it. Your parrots do too, so did your cat. You've lived well and can rest easy knowing you did your best. You've touched a lot of us random strangers too!

Sweet dreams. We'll be here to the end.

 

[EmptyArms]

You are not alone. I care what happens to you. I care that you have suffered. I know that you are somebody, and not nothing. If you want to message me please do. I will listen to you.

 

[LMLN]

You are not alone and you are not useless. We are here for you. Love and peace to you whatever you decide. ❤