So much mental pain

[peaceindeath]

I feel I'm moving further and further away from my lovely family. They are still living their life, but I'm sinking into a hellhole. I wish I could die surrounded by them , mental illness is recognized just as physical illness. But now everyday I have to pretend to be okkk.
All the good memories we had just makes me sad. I don't want to die alone, I wish I could die like a cancer patient.
Why is it so hard?
Are there anyone else struggling?

 

[Mirrory Me]

It's hard to be happy with others when you're unhappy, sometimes you need your own space to heal. Are you afraid of hurting others or being rejected? Why are you so desperate to die? You must be suffering a lot. Mental health can sometimes be a problem for all of us when we are not at our best, but it does help us solve our problems.

 

[kunikuzushi]

I agree. All I ever wanted was to die like a cancer patient with at least one loved one supporting me. But I've had to distance myself from everyone because my mental illness just causes them pain. I'm sorry you're going through this

 

[FuneralCry]

To me, it's so horrible how people suffer so much in this hellish world. There really is far too much unnecessary torment here, it must be so dreadful and tiring being trapped in that situation. But anyway I wish you the best.