So much for recovery....

[SomewhereAlongThe]

I tried recovery, spent time thinking about how awesome my life will be. It all went wrong when the one filler for my day didn't work out. I wish I could write something I actually like, I wish I was creative enough to tell a good story. Honestly I wish I had some merit or worth when it comes to talent, so I could spend my life doing that. But there's nothing at all for me in this world. So I've decided the suicide method I impulsively put together, will be my final way out of here.

I also struggle with insomnia, and right now my doctor is not too keen on medication. I see myself always having chronic sleep problems as I am not mentally fit enough to make the lifestyle changes that will help my sleep.