Venting So mentally exhausted.

[SHThrowAway213]

For the last couple of days I have felt so drained.
I'm so sick of fighting.
It's the same shit every day, the same shit I have to fight.
I thought I would be dead by now.
My husband has also decided against seeing his Nan because of the weather.
It keeps on looking that it is going to rain, and due to the lockdown rules, he can only see her in her garden. I wont get a chance soon.
I'm just so done.
I've had around 13 attempts, 5 of them in the past 2 years, the first attempt was when I was 13.
13?!
Do you know how messed up you have to be to try something at that age?
You lot understand that, but other people don't. I don't feel normal.
I have tried life again and again, and it's just been so shit.
Stuff always goes wrong.
I just want to die, is that too much to ask for?
Please, I'm so tired.
Just let me go.

 

[Adamsnolife]

Sorry to hear that you are really struggling at the moment

 

[AnxietyAttack44]

I feel the same and i hope it gets better for you, or atleast that you can endure it a bit longer, until its your time to find peace. One moment at a time, thats my moto right now. Maybe you can find some comfort in the fact that we all die one day, and our pain here will definitely stop. Just the matter of time.
Try to rest up and relax. Death will get us all, i hope it gets me sooner then later tho
Good luck

 

[Dead beat dad]

For the last couple of days I have felt so drained.
I'm so sick of fighting.
It's the same shit every day, the same shit I have to fight.
I thought I would be dead by now.
My husband has also decided against seeing his Nan because of the weather.
It keeps on looking that it is going to rain, and due to the lockdown rules, he can only see her in her garden. I wont get a chance soon.
I'm just so done.
I've had around 13 attempts, 5 of them in the past 2 years, the first attempt was when I was 13.
13?!
Do you know how messed up you have to be to try something at that age?
You lot understand that, but other people don't. I don't feel normal.
I have tried life again and again, and it's just been so shit.
Stuff always goes wrong.
I just want to die, is that too much to ask for?
Please, I'm so tired.
Just let me go.

My friend I feel your pain. I'm so sorry to hear about your situation. I think exhaustion is something that many here relate to.
I really hope that you can find some light in your sea of darkness friend.
Love and respect

DBD