So Many Regrets

[Unattainable666]

I have so many regrets. Probably too many for this post. My most recent was not succeeding to catch the bus last Saturday. I keep thinking if I had died I would have never felt the pain I felt this week; I would have never had to deal with the rejection I felt. I want to try again but I can't deal with another failure. I am so low, so tired, so over breathing I can't get out of bed. I wish oh how I wish I had been loved while I was here, but the bitch was right I was never loved. Sorry I'm having a pity party of one.

 

[gbi2]

Everything seems so easy at first. With ctb, we all have our reasons for not being able to at any given time. Suicidal Instinct is the main one but timing, how we feel on the day, transparent dangling carrots, can all make it difficult for us to make an attempt or any successive ones.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really wish that the option is there to just never wake again, it's dreadful how people have to suffer so much in this cruel existence where we cannot even easily just die in peace when we want to.

 

[gotomrg]

im sorry you feel like it. things change. sometimes for the better, sometimes for the worse. this stagnation will be over at some point, i promise