So low rn..

[FoxSauce]

Dealing with super low today has been slowly but surely getting worse.

These thoughts that I should cbt, I'll never find happiness in live are somewhat true.

I just want this suffering to end, I eant to recover or atleast move forward but I'm stuck. Is true that I shouldn't be focusing on stuff I cant do but I feel like I havent accomplished anything in my life.

Im gonna die alone sad and unloved. I feel selfish for feeling this way. I havent even progressed at drawing something I love doing.

Amd I being selfish? Am I ungrateful? Am I complaining to much?

I dont fit in society at all. Everything is becoming a chore eating doing my hair even doing basic errands but I kinda have too.

I cant even be by myself cuz makes me to anxious.

Ik this isnt something I should complain about but I really want a partner to be with (God makes me sound pathetic)

Im trying to make things right ans see the positives in life but is really hard when reality is in your face. Should I be ignorant and be oblivious on what's going on around me ? Or am I not putting enough effort?

People can't survive in this economy, everything in society is going to shit. Why be optimistic when the world is burning and decaying all around you?! We're all just puppets for society! If you don't find any mold you'll sure be spit out!


Idk how people expect someone to survive in a crappy salary when things keep increasing and increasing. Housing, Healthcare, bill , taxes, insurance.
This world is a massive shit hole.


Anyways sorry for the long ass rant

 

[INYGTRMTFMO]

Yeah, the world sucks right now. Everything is harder and scarier and worse than it should be.

In my case, I've reasoned that I can't ctb because of others, so, if I HAVE to live in this nightmare hellscape, might as well contribute as much love and kindness to my little pocket of it as I can. Maybe that can be a motivation? Everything is awful, but maybe, for however long you're here, we can do what we can to make it slightly less awful for those around us?

 

[FoxSauce]

True, I just needed to get that out of my system