Ryan.s
Experienced
- Nov 29, 2019
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I feel so lonely. I'm going to try to CTB again tonight. Do any of you guys just get so lonely at night?
Daytime is no cherry pie.I feel so lonely. I'm going to try to CTB again tonight. Do any of you guys just get so lonely at night?
I don't feel lonely per say, i just find my life to be very boring and repetitive, and being alone most of the time is the main cause for that.
The thing is i actually like being alone, and if i could get a house of my own i think i would feel a lot better.
Thanks for the encouragement, mate! Really appreciated it!I've a house of my own and I'm still on here.
The thing to keep in mind is that whatever you do, whomever you meet & wherever you go, *you* will always still there. So a change of situation won't necessarily remove thoughts of ctb. Trust me; I've spent the majority of 20 years changing my situations, praying each time that the ever present wish that I was no longer here would finally vanish.
But sadly, it doesn't work that way; *I'm* still the common denominator every damn time...
Thanks for the encouragement, mate! Really appreciated it!
First of all, i never said it would take away my ctb feelings. I just said it would make me feel better. And that's something i KNOW for a fact.Wasn't aiming for encouragement or discouragement, my friend; just stating that pinning ALL your hopes on an external thing changing to "fix" you on the inside isn't really realistic. Sure it'll boost you & give you a great focus for awhile, for sure, but unless your reason for wanting to ctb is *SOLELY* down to your unhappy living situation (which'd honestly really surprise me; most people don't decide to commit suicide just because they hate their living arrangements), then I'm simply saying you should just be prepared for the ctb feelings to return at some point - once the novelty of the new abode eventually wears off.
*Nothing* acquired can be new & unexplored forever, can it...?
First of all, i never said it would take away my ctb feelings. I just said it would make me feel better. And that's something i KNOW for a fact.
Second i only mentioned getting a house and being alone because that's what goes more in line with what the OP was asking about (feeling lonely and wether or not that affects people). I'm not "pinning all my hopes on" getting a house to "fix me on the inside". You just assumed that. I have more than just that to keep me still trying. It's people like you who give this site a bad name.
Don't try to drag others down your drain. Being independent didn't help in Your case? I'm sorry to hear that, but don't go around spreading negativity towards others, otherwise you're just making it seem as if you actually enjoy making life seem hopeless to everyone.
I know man, i didn't mean to offend you.You are quite correct; I did misunderstand/misinterpret what you said - pretty much entirely(!); apologies. Failed to take in the context of your comment.
Still, people have off moments, dude; just because someone seems a bit less optimistic in a post doesn't mean they're rooting for ANYONE to ctb. They're just not necessarily having a great day themselves and are only human...
I know man, i didn't mean to offend you.
I wish you well and hope you can feel better in the future and find some degree of happiness and fulfillment in your life, for real.
We are all here for a reason. Life is already ruthless with us, no point in being here tearing at each other.
Yes every day and every night. I am here if you want to talkI feel so lonely. I'm going to try to CTB again tonight. Do any of you guys just get so lonely at night?
I was going to ask later if he'd managed to ctb in the end. He'd said he was going to try hanging. Dunno if he'd tried before & had been unsuccessful. Hopefully, he's now found his peace.I think Ryan finally made it. Hope you find peace.