AresCohere
Professional Insomniac
- Apr 10, 2023
- 159
In my last thread made here I discussed roughly my current developing issues in more details, and was pushed to talk to my therapist.
I did, along with my dad and my sister, who while I still suspect don't really like me, are the leave hateful of my existence, unlike my mother who caused a lot of these issues and threatens to send me to a psyche ward if I talk about my "problems".
My therapist said it could be early stages of schizophrenia, likely paranoid schizophrenia. This makes my situation even more dire, as as time moves on my condition will likely make me deteriorate more and more, giving my already bleak future even less hope.
Im still only on the fence about CTB as of right now, but as long as this, my life, continues as is, I don't see hope.
Im still making under minimum wage at a job where I often don't get paid for a lot of the hours for where I am forced to be there, and are still facing down how I will be totally alone in a college over a thousand miles from home in just a few months…
In an update to my situation, I continue to have auditory, and the occasional visual hallucinations, along will the smells that nobody else can detect. With this, episodes of intense paranoia and panic attacks have continues to happen, a bit less prominent recently as the school years has ended, but this wont last long.
I've thought up a few plans for my CTB which I will likely talk about in length eventually, after all whenever I'm home I often lock myself in my room to avoid my family so I have plenty of time to do this.
Is anyone here in a similar situation? Should I tell my therapist more? I have only told them about the hallucinations and some of the paranoia for now.
I did, along with my dad and my sister, who while I still suspect don't really like me, are the leave hateful of my existence, unlike my mother who caused a lot of these issues and threatens to send me to a psyche ward if I talk about my "problems".
My therapist said it could be early stages of schizophrenia, likely paranoid schizophrenia. This makes my situation even more dire, as as time moves on my condition will likely make me deteriorate more and more, giving my already bleak future even less hope.
Im still only on the fence about CTB as of right now, but as long as this, my life, continues as is, I don't see hope.
Im still making under minimum wage at a job where I often don't get paid for a lot of the hours for where I am forced to be there, and are still facing down how I will be totally alone in a college over a thousand miles from home in just a few months…
In an update to my situation, I continue to have auditory, and the occasional visual hallucinations, along will the smells that nobody else can detect. With this, episodes of intense paranoia and panic attacks have continues to happen, a bit less prominent recently as the school years has ended, but this wont last long.
I've thought up a few plans for my CTB which I will likely talk about in length eventually, after all whenever I'm home I often lock myself in my room to avoid my family so I have plenty of time to do this.
Is anyone here in a similar situation? Should I tell my therapist more? I have only told them about the hallucinations and some of the paranoia for now.
