Oblivion Access
I don't know anything
- Jul 5, 2019
- 333
Only to realise I have nobody but like 1 person left I talk to because I haven't been outside for months, have lost touch with or had fights with most people and am not meeting new people because I hope to die sooner than later. Oh well. I guess becoming isolated means my passing will leave less of a void in people's lives, given nobody is really dependent on me for companionship? Solitude does also mean not worrying about people's lives and effectively living under a rock which I do appreciate in many ways. At least the high is nice. If I had money and good access to opiates I might consider staying alive and riding till the wheels fall off. If it's between addiction and lying in bed while feeling like a worthless piece of shit and counting hours until I can sleep, I'll take addiction any time.