So exhausted

[ThePollinator]

I feel so exhausted. I dropped out of college, and I don't have a job anymore. I'm slowly running out of my savings money. I now know that MAiD won't be an option for me next year when it allows people with mental illness because I haven't tried ketamine therapy or ECT. I don't have the energy to go across the country to try more things that won't work. I know the medical system won't help me anymore. I'm gathering the last of my money to get SN. I hope that my attempt with SN doesn't trigger my ptsd, because all my attempts lately have triggered flashbacks of past attempts and have stopped me from ctb