Help So desperate to leave but can't find anyone to join me

[Happy Cat]

Yeah I know I can just end it all myself. Problem is that I'm worried I could be found out since what I need would have to be shipped to my address and I currently live with other people right now. Also, I rather not die alone but finding a partner on here that I could meet with is taking too long. I have people ghosting me or just unwilling to travel. Which is fine I guess, I can't really blame you since I also can't travel anywhere with my current situation, just makes it more difficult to me and other people also trying to find a partner.

If I had enough knowledge on how to buy on the blackmarket things would be easier

 

[idk i forgot xx]

I'm in the same situation, I'm afraid of surviving it more than anything else and I have planned many routes to go out but I just can't do anything on my own.. I was just walking home from like a five minute walk and thinking of writing a post to reach people in my proximity but I seriously doubt to be succesful in my endeavour so I don't know, I guess I'll keep starving myself out and hide somewhere when I think it's time. The last four people I was in close contact with in the past nine months are also prone to CTB and I have this bug in me that makes (or made me, I guess) wish I could just ask them to end it together, alas they all live so far away and I just would really hate myself for cutting someone else's life short; So I just suppress that feeling and there's just so much more to say. I hope things will turn around for the better for you..