So close to tapping out. (Tentative) CTB Date

[TydalWave]

Well it's been a royal pain in the ass getting my meto, but shipping finally updated and it is in the U.S and hopefully will arrive sometime this week.

If it weren't for these delays I don't think I would be here right now, but I am proud that I am going through with this as planned and not taking any unnecessary risks--as hard as these weeks have been on me. I have to travel for work again this week so my best plan is to hopefully have everything ready to begin my 48hr plan next weekend.

I wish I had better than OTC pain killers, and something stronger for anxiety but I think this will suffice.

My method of choice:
- SN + Propranolol + Meto

I have to travel for work again this week, so hopefully going to use the time I have in the night to tie up some loose ends. Still have to write the letters I have been procastinating on... etc. There's so many other things I want to have done that I know I wont get to. It's just gotten so hard to find the energy to do these things. It's taking all of my strength these past few weeks to just get through the normal life / work and relationships without giving off any red flags or drawing attention. I am so tapped out at this point. Just one. more. week.

 

[universe]

I imagine it must be a relief to have everything you need for the SN method. I'm sorry that life has tried you so hard and I hope you find peace. I'm also counting CTB by SN next, and like you, I'm exhausted. There comes a stage where the brain can no longer function properly, it can no longer retain things, reason. He can no longer function all day without ever finding peace. All tasks become difficult, one becomes a zombie. Physically we feel weak and unhealthy, we walk slowly, breathe slowly, we feel cold.

I wish you the best.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do understand that it can be difficult to carry on existing when you feel so exhausted of everything, being here can certainly be tiring when all that you wish for is to be gone. But I hope that when the time is right for you to leave, you find freedom from all suffering.

 

[Braindead Atheist]

Well it's been a royal pain in the ass getting my meto, but shipping finally updated and it is in the U.S and hopefully will arrive sometime this week.

If it weren't for these delays I don't think I would be here right now, but I am proud that I am going through with this as planned and not taking any unnecessary risks--as hard as these weeks have been on me. I have to travel for work again this week so my best plan is to hopefully have everything ready to begin my 48hr plan next weekend.

I wish I had better than OTC pain killers, and something stronger for anxiety but I think this will suffice.

My method of choice:
- SN + Propranolol + Meto

I have to travel for work again this week, so hopefully going to use the time I have in the night to tie up some loose ends. Still have to write the letters I have been procastinating on... etc. There's so many other things I want to have done that I know I wont get to. It's just gotten so hard to find the energy to do these things. It's taking all of my strength these past few weeks to just get through the normal life / work and relationships without giving off any red flags or drawing attention. I am so tapped out at this point. Just one. more. week.

You're so close to the end of your scentance! You're a God for putting up with life. I feel sick just thinking of that awful word...life.

I do understand that it can be difficult to carry on existing when you feel so exhausted of everything, being here can certainly be tiring when all that you wish for is to be gone. But I hope that when the time is right for you to leave, you find freedom from all suffering.

That's funeral cry! The SS Angel of Mercy!