Venting So anxious I can’t take it

[failureofahuman]

The relationship thing I'm in right now makes me very anxious. I feel kind of bad I'll be killing myself but it's not a big concern for me to be honest. If we break up beforehand it'll just be more fuel. I'm such a lonely person, but any time spent with others just feels like a deviation from the norm. I don't fit in with anyone and I hate having to follow all of the social rules. I feel so socially broken, I can't feel close to anyone. I'm so tired of this life and excited for it all to be over. I want to be rid of myself and the burden of my consciousness and existence. Being nothing, feeling nothing sounds like heaven. I don't want to exist, I don't want to have to be myself because I hate myself. I'm so so so so so so tired of all this.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also feel really tired of being conscious in this existence and I just wish to not exist as well, to permanently not exist is all I wish for, I just hope to never exist ever again, non-existence is all that can bring me peace, I'd be so relieved to be free from the burden of existence. But anyway I wish you the best.