Can you document it sorry If Im being harsh
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protocol-based info
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yesterday
- binge ate a lot in the morning, took a ton of laxatives around 12 P
- got SN in mail around 3 P, stopped eating solid food
- drank a few oz of prune juice around 8 or so to help with bowel movements
today
- 50mg benadryl at 9 15 A
- 5 tums (I forget the dosage, I just did 2x the recommended amount per Stan's guide) at 9 45 A
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writing down things
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a bit tired, waiting is causing some anxiety. yesterday was pretty uneventful, fasting hasn't been difficult thus far. I'm about to take some tums and listen to some music (I absolutely love the new Weyes Blood from 2022)
I recommend laxing because it has a bit of a psychological effect, I feel like my body will absorb the SN very quickly because there's literally nothing else for it to absorb or anything to block absorption. I'm not sure if this is what actually occurs in real life, but there might be some truth to me
20 minutes before taking the SN, definitely feeling a bit of SI kick. however, it has decreased quite a bit since my first attempt. no offense, but I don't want to be one of those lonely gross suicidal 30 year olds and I certainly don't want to recover or live the rest of the day honestly. also, I hope something fun lies around the corner, so I'm staying optimistic for that
fuck I can't believe I just did that
okay byeee guys I love you xoxoxoxo