JustAnotherSuicider
Hoping for the best - expecting the worst
- Dec 28, 2019
- 98
So I'm not sure If I should try SN or just hang myself.
SN seems like more peaceful way to CTB, but what If after drinking it I will throw up immediately? What If SI will kick in before I pass out and I decide to call ambulance? There are so many things that can go wrong. And I have only SN, no meto, antiacid or anything else, just SN.
And with full suspension hanging all you have to do is just one step. You just have to defeat your SI once and it's all over, there is no going back. After you make this one step you can't change your mind. But it's more painful for sure. And If found to early I might end with brain damage.
Or maybe I will try with SN, and If it fails then I will just hang myself.
And partial hanging is not an option, I tried it already and can't make myself pass out.
I don't know what to do. All I want is to be dead already. I can't stand this pain any longer.
SN seems like more peaceful way to CTB, but what If after drinking it I will throw up immediately? What If SI will kick in before I pass out and I decide to call ambulance? There are so many things that can go wrong. And I have only SN, no meto, antiacid or anything else, just SN.
And with full suspension hanging all you have to do is just one step. You just have to defeat your SI once and it's all over, there is no going back. After you make this one step you can't change your mind. But it's more painful for sure. And If found to early I might end with brain damage.
Or maybe I will try with SN, and If it fails then I will just hang myself.
And partial hanging is not an option, I tried it already and can't make myself pass out.
I don't know what to do. All I want is to be dead already. I can't stand this pain any longer.
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