peacecomingsoon
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- Dec 28, 2025
- 11
Hello everyone. I've finally chosen a date for ctb and will be using SN as my chosen method. The date will be the 4th of January, 6 days time from today and I'll be doing it in a hotel.
The hotel I've booked is over an hour's drive away from my home city, in another city. It is a small, independent motel and I've booked a room for 1 night on 4th Jan. I unfortunately am limited by financial cost so cannot book for 2 nights. It is highly likely that my family will report me missing shortly after I leave for the hotel so I'm expecting to be found by police eventually and booking 2 nights would be pointless for this reason. I'll be travelling by public transport (train & bus) to the hotel to avoid being tracked and the journey will be 3 hours total to arrive to the motel. My phone will be switched to airplane mode to not receive any phone calls or texts and prevent tracing, I'll also have screenshots of the public transport route to follow on the way.
The SN I obtained is >99% purity and seems legit. I have just over 70g and have stored other lethal doses around my home too in case this somehow fails/I'm found by police. So, I'll be bringing 20g with me for the 4th Jan. Unfortunately, I could not access an anti-emetic though as it requires a prescription in my country and I'm a horrible liar and could not find the time either... I know that SN is effective regardless of using an anti-emetic or not and that anti-emetic/meto use seems just to decrease vomiting potentially, improve SN absorption? and a more comfortable experience. Since I can't access it though and don't have time to buy it through other ways I'll have to go without.
PLAN:
- 20 or 30g SN 99% purity
- Mylanta/antacid (double dose of what is recommended on label)
- Paracetamol 1000mg
- potentially alcohol/1 drink to relax SI? I know this is not recommended but don't have any benzos, unsure of what I could use/take to replace the benzo
1. Fast for 8-12 hours (likely 12 hrs)
2. Two hours before, stop drinking liquids (10pm)
3. One hour before, 1000mg paracetamol (11pm)
4. Forty minutes before, begin dissolving SN into both cups in 50-100ml water (10g or 15g per cup, two cups)
5. Fifteen minutes before, antacid double dose (11:45pm)
6. Put note outside hotel room door to 'call police if I don't answer the door at checkout time, do not enter' (11:50pm)
7. Lock hotel room door and barricade with chairs/desk/furniture (police will be looking for me and could find me - is this required, to barricade?)
8. Listen to final chosen songs and drink SN solution, lay back on chair or bed and relax (12am)
9. Potentially chew on gum afterward or bring mouthwash to reduce the aftertaste
Currently, this is the plan... Open to any tips or advice for improvement please!
I am especially worried too about police finding me before I die (due to family very likely reporting me missing on the day). The hotel I booked was with my real personal details which means that police could find me faster but the hotel requires photo ID upon check in so I had no choice. The fact that it's in another city which is in another state should give me some more time and also my family are unaware that I've been depressed/suicidal so may take more time for police to realise this. However, I also made the mistake of contacting a helpline a week ago and was too honest. They called for a welfare check but this was just before Christmas so it never happened luckily. But, police may see this uncompleted welfare check in their system and this could raise their concern or priority in searching for me on the day (4th Jan)...
How could I reduce the chances of police finding me? And what should I do if they do find me or knock on my hotel room door?
Thanks in advance.
The hotel I've booked is over an hour's drive away from my home city, in another city. It is a small, independent motel and I've booked a room for 1 night on 4th Jan. I unfortunately am limited by financial cost so cannot book for 2 nights. It is highly likely that my family will report me missing shortly after I leave for the hotel so I'm expecting to be found by police eventually and booking 2 nights would be pointless for this reason. I'll be travelling by public transport (train & bus) to the hotel to avoid being tracked and the journey will be 3 hours total to arrive to the motel. My phone will be switched to airplane mode to not receive any phone calls or texts and prevent tracing, I'll also have screenshots of the public transport route to follow on the way.
The SN I obtained is >99% purity and seems legit. I have just over 70g and have stored other lethal doses around my home too in case this somehow fails/I'm found by police. So, I'll be bringing 20g with me for the 4th Jan. Unfortunately, I could not access an anti-emetic though as it requires a prescription in my country and I'm a horrible liar and could not find the time either... I know that SN is effective regardless of using an anti-emetic or not and that anti-emetic/meto use seems just to decrease vomiting potentially, improve SN absorption? and a more comfortable experience. Since I can't access it though and don't have time to buy it through other ways I'll have to go without.
PLAN:
- 20 or 30g SN 99% purity
- Mylanta/antacid (double dose of what is recommended on label)
- Paracetamol 1000mg
- potentially alcohol/1 drink to relax SI? I know this is not recommended but don't have any benzos, unsure of what I could use/take to replace the benzo
1. Fast for 8-12 hours (likely 12 hrs)
2. Two hours before, stop drinking liquids (10pm)
3. One hour before, 1000mg paracetamol (11pm)
4. Forty minutes before, begin dissolving SN into both cups in 50-100ml water (10g or 15g per cup, two cups)
5. Fifteen minutes before, antacid double dose (11:45pm)
6. Put note outside hotel room door to 'call police if I don't answer the door at checkout time, do not enter' (11:50pm)
7. Lock hotel room door and barricade with chairs/desk/furniture (police will be looking for me and could find me - is this required, to barricade?)
8. Listen to final chosen songs and drink SN solution, lay back on chair or bed and relax (12am)
9. Potentially chew on gum afterward or bring mouthwash to reduce the aftertaste
Currently, this is the plan... Open to any tips or advice for improvement please!
I am especially worried too about police finding me before I die (due to family very likely reporting me missing on the day). The hotel I booked was with my real personal details which means that police could find me faster but the hotel requires photo ID upon check in so I had no choice. The fact that it's in another city which is in another state should give me some more time and also my family are unaware that I've been depressed/suicidal so may take more time for police to realise this. However, I also made the mistake of contacting a helpline a week ago and was too honest. They called for a welfare check but this was just before Christmas so it never happened luckily. But, police may see this uncompleted welfare check in their system and this could raise their concern or priority in searching for me on the day (4th Jan)...
How could I reduce the chances of police finding me? And what should I do if they do find me or knock on my hotel room door?
Thanks in advance.