SN method - reduce survival to as close to 0% as possible

[Suicidebydeath]

Can anyone offer some advice with this?

I plan to take SN with meto when they both arrive. I'll be overstaying so hopefully not kicked out before then. I have propranolol too. I'll follow any regimen as best as I can.
My main concern is it will be somewhat horrifying if I survive somehow. Nobody checks on me so I'll be in agony and terrible condition if I survive and even if I don't face a slow, painful death after that (probable), I'll be facing being stuck in a psych ward for the first time.

So to avoid a slow, painful death if I don't die somehow, any advices?

Also I'm really sorry for everyone that I'm leaving behind. Not my family. Just you guys, Rebeka and friends online.

 

[sleeps]

i'd prepare multiple sn glasses to drink if i vomit. ive never heard of anyone surviving very long after getting a fatal dose into their system w/o medical intervention. also i'll take a bunch of benzos to ease my nerves and hopefully pass out asap.

 

[Suicidebydeath]

I'm thinking about preparing 2 glasses, I'm just concerned in case I can't drink both, vomit, or there is a slim possibility that I survive regardless. I really don't want to suffer for a long period either, the worst scenario I can think of results in me surviving but being in paralysed agony for days until someone eventually finds me, then being transferred to psych ward with irreparable damage.

I don't have benzos, I guess I won't be taking any on principle either. I want to ctb with close to zero psychoactive interference (besides mirtazapine).

 

[searchingforpeace]

Can someone tell me how you get meto?

 

[Thánatos.]

SN can it cause paralysis?

 

[Suicidebydeath]

SN can it cause paralysis?

I just mean the general condition of being too sick to move. I'm feeling a bit of regret at not getting more than 50mg now, even though it should be enough. At least I should be getting AE.

 

[freedomcalls]

Any posts I've seen where people have taken SN and survived seem to have sickness, aches & extreme exhaustion but then recover without incidence.

On the off chance that you survive, if you are unlikely to be found for a few days then probably you just risk waking up to a horrible mess (if you have vomited) & a few days of feeling horrific; but hopefully no long term ill effect.

There are a lot of SN posts here and it seems to be very effective for those who commit and carry through with it

 

[beingfree]

I was actually thinking that for SN it would be best to go to an isolated place without a phone - as a lot of people seem to regret calling for help, but their SI makes them.

 

[damaged_soul]

I was actually thinking that for SN it would be best to go to an isolated place without a phone - as a lot of people seem to regret calling for help, but their SI makes them.

Yes I am really worried about calling for help. I'd rather not go to a different place though; I'd prefer to just do it in my apartment (I live alone). What should I do about my phone? I am thinking of putting it inside my mailbox. That way, it would be much harder for me to access it compared to if I just had the phone in my apartment. Yet at the same time, in case the method ends up going horribly wrong (e.g. I threw up the SN and can't bring myself to drink another glass because I'm just too sick), I can still go get my phone from my mailbox and call for help.