Hello
I know how you feel. I received mine a little over a month ago and I didn't touch it. I got the anti-E and I still have to buy an anti acid. I have left my country and I am now far from everything in Africa.
Leaving is a natural process for me. I have set for my departure from the earth a very close date. I think I follow the diet advised by stan.
I hope my end will be peaceful. I know, however, that this decision, which I have been walling for almost five years, will leave a field of ruins behind me. But getting up every morning became insurmountable.
I would have liked to achieve so many things and when I look behind me, I see nothing but failures. Never the worse, I'll go into nothingness with an unfinished life.
This box you received, looks strangely like mine. I know this feeling of seeming to regain some control over one's life by deciding the when and how of his death. I also know that feeling of doubt. Because we're all the same in the fund. We don't want to die, let alone suffer, but we can't live anymore.
For my part, the anguish of living has become such that I sometimes feel ridiculous in dreading a phone call or bad news when I myself have sentenced myself to death.
Make your own way of thinking, but know that everything you feel or feel is shared by a lot of people on earth.
