SN can’t come soon enough

[ceserasera]

I'm becoming even more certain of my choice as each day passes.

I don't know whether to be relieved or upset at the fact that nobody has any idea. If I'm being honest, I don't think anybody would want to know anyway. I've always felt and been made to feel like an imposition. People dislike my presence but I also feel the need to apologise for it. They don't know why I'm here and neither do I.

People have never cared about how I feel, only how it inconveniences them. Nothing has really changed except I don't see the point in saying anything anymore. It's old news. I have no hope and nobody is going to hold hope for me.

It's not as if I have some tragic life story full of failed attempts at 'getting better'.

Don't believe everything they say about how you never know how someone is feeling. People always think they know and even if you tell them and it's different to what they'd expect, if it doesn't fit their idea of suffering they don't care.

On another note, does anyone know how long SN from the pretty well known source takes to arrive? I've been tracking it for nearly a week and no change in its location.

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't really know the answer to the question but I hope that when the time is right for you to leave this awful world, you find the freedom that you wish for. It's understandable as to why you would want the SN so badly, as I think that those who have it by their side are very fortunate.

 

[LadyApple]

I care about how you feel. You can talk to me. I ordered mine about two years ago and it came in two days. But they no longer sell it now.

 

[LookingOverTheEdge]

I'm sorry life has brought you to this point.

I'm just a stranger on the Internet, so I know it doesn't mean a great deal, but I care about how you feel. I would genuinely like to listen to you, and hear what you have to say. If you decide you would like to talk, even to vent, that's an open offer.