SN bought, now I need to plan the rest

[letsalllovelain:3]

Now I need to get money to buy some shitty smartphone that is able to read PDFs (I plan to flee to Germany to CTB and I can't print my ticket, my boyfriend would notice) and just do this. I also need to get other medicine like Paracetamol and heartburn meds. I will also get something for anxiety since my SI hits really hard.
Buying a physical ticket at train station is not an option, I don't want to get into memory of more people than I have to. I will be probably announced as missing as soon as people will notice I left the house without my phones.
I will CTB in next couple of months. Thank you guys for being here, I can finally relief myself from this suffering soon enough <3

 

[SilentSadness]

Good luck with your plans, or if you change your mind then I hope your situation improves.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best with your plans and I hope that when the time is right for you to leave, you find freedom from all suffering.

 

[tsykoais]

are you going to allow anyone to know where you're going (leave a note, memo, etc)? or are you just going to remain missing? because if you just go like that it'll look sketchy and they'll have to look in to your death and your family will be left searching for answers.

 

[letsalllovelain:3]

are you going to allow anyone to know where you're going (leave a note, memo, etc)? or are you just going to remain missing? because if you just go like that it'll look sketchy and they'll have to look in to your death and your family will be left searching for answers.

I want to leave a memo that I will not come back.

 

[tsykoais]

I want to leave a memo that I will not come back.

okay that sounds good. i'd suggest it'd be by video/voice so people know it's by you for sure, families are usually in denial when suicides happen. good luck with your plan and if you change your mind last minute i wish you a safe recovery.

 

[letsalllovelain:3]

okay that sounds good. i'd suggest it'd be by video/voice so people know it's by you for sure, families are usually in denial when suicides happen. good luck with your plan and if you change your mind last minute i wish you a safe recovery.

I will record a few tiktoks before that. Thank you and I hope you will reach happiness as well <3