SN arrived Australia

[Pumpkin_spice_]

First time posting.
My SN arrived from a source identified on here. I live in Australia and it took about 4 weeks to arrive.
I still don't know when I'll CTB but it's nice to know I now have an option.
I've been suffering from depression most of my life and have been considering suicide as an option out for a long time. Most people in my life would probably be surprised to hear this. I have what would be considered a great life (high paying job, friends, husband, dog, house). Depression runs in my family but no one talks about it (I come from an Eastern European background). My job (although high paying) is super stressful, toxic and relentless.
I took three months off last year and spent it travelling Europe. I had the best time but honestly wanted to CTB at the end of it. If I had SN available (or knew about it then) I probably would have. I feel like I've reached the peak of my life and it's only downhill from here. What's the point of continuing? Suicide is so frowned upon in society but really if someone wants to go just let them.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you'd feel relief at having the option, I also wish suicide is accepted as a personal choice and it feels so cruel to me how it isn't as all I wish for is to never exist again, I also personally see no point to suffering. But anyway I wish you the best.