Qua
there's no turning back now
- Apr 30, 2023
- 76
2 years ago I've been diagnosed with episodal depression and it's just been going in and out since then. Sometimes it would last longer, sometimes shorted but it always came back. Now I feel like I'm just getting worse after a bit when I really felt good. I didn't struggle with random mood swings for a while, didn't cry myself to sleep and was actually motivated to start working well since the new school year started and I have to do my best cuz I have a maturity exam at the end of it. I really thought that I was getting better, that I can try and reduce the dose of meds that I take and live like every normal person. But now I realized that I lost all motivation again, I'm tired, feeling down and I'm not interested in anything. Maybe I'm just tired of studying a lot? Maybe I somehow overworked myself and my organism needs to shut down for a bit? I don't know, but the idea that I might be going through yet another episode is not making it any better.
