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Anarchy

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My dad comes back in just over an hour or so. I'm only left alone for a few hours at a time. They said that they'd leave me alone for most of the day, but there are only a few hours when they are out.
I'm considering raiding the cupboard for alochol to give me 'liquid courage', but if I get caught then I'll be sectioned, and it's just over an hour.
I never get enough time. I wish I could keep a knife in my room so I could attempt when they're asleep, but they'd notice it missing.
Would they notice if I overdosed on Paracetamol and Sertraline?
There's never enough time!
How the hell am I ever supposed to find the time if I only ever have a few hours? A few hours is not enough for me.I can't even do it at my own pace.
They'll never leave me alone for more than a few hours. Arrrghh!
 
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Don't do anything right now or you regret this rest of your live. Sertraline won't kill you
 
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Paracetmol might. If not, it should at least force me to act before they find out and section me. But I'm not going ahead with aything at the moment anyway. There's not enough time. There's never enough time.
 
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nitz

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If you can go outside and buy a rope hide it in the woods, when you parents asleep you can d o it
 
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Paracetmol might. If not, it should at least force me to act before they find out and section me. But I'm not going ahead with aything at the moment anyway. There's not enough time. There's never enough time.
paracetamol dead sounds horrible
 
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Yeah, it does. I imagine that taking pills would be relatively easy compared to my other methods, though.
 
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If you can go outside and buy a rope hide it in the woods, when you parents asleep you can d o it
Unfortunately, don't have rope and am not able to buy some. My parents have been awake in the very early morning recently.
 
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lv-gras

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know this might not help, but maybe hang in for a better time? maybe one where you can get out of there?
 
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know this might not help, but maybe hang in for a better time? maybe one where you can get out of there?
Ideally, I wouldn't be living with anyone when I attempt, but I don't have enough money to move out.
They only leave me for a few hours so there never seems to be a good time, especially as they've been awake in the early morning recently.
 
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Paracetmol might. If not, it should at least force me to act before they find out and section me. But I'm not going ahead with aything at the moment anyway. There's not enough time. There's never enough time.
No no no. please think about this before you rush into doing something silly. Paracetamol probably won't kill you, you'll just be in so much pain that you will not be able to avoid asking for help or going to a+e. You'll be in hospital, possibly get sectioned, be force fed activated charcoal.

It will not be a pleasant experience and you will regret it. Please if you really want to die choose a different method and if you want to perform a suicidal gesture then also choose a different method.

Good luck.

edit: Do you mind if I ask your age, or approx?
 
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Yeah, it does. I imagine that taking pills would be relatively easy compared to my other methods, though.

Taking pills is easy. From what I have heard though taking pills the will actually kill you is really hard. Taking pills that will kill you quickly and painlessly is even harder. I would recommend finding another way sorry. I wish pills were easy so I could use them too but they aren't.
 
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Anarchy

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Jul 9, 2018
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No no no. please think about this before you rush into doing something silly. Paracetamol probably won't kill you, you'll just be in so much pain that you will not be able to avoid asking for help or going to a+e. You'll be in hospital, possibly get sectioned, be force fed activated charcoal.

It will not be a pleasant experience and you will regret it. Please if you really want to die choose a different method and if you want to perform a suicidal gesture then also choose a different method.

Good luck.

edit: Do you mind if I ask your age, or approx?

I plan to combine taking drugs with other methods; I just feel like I would be forced to take action if I overdosed, to avoid being sectioned, and then if worse comes to worst and I can't bring myself to implement the other methods, at least there'd still be a chance that I'd die.
Also, if found bleeding to death or at the tracks, I'd be sectioned whereas overdose is less noticeable.
If I get sectioned for cutting myself or standing on the tracks, at least they'd probably be less likely to notice overdose symptoms as their attention would be elsewhere.

I'm 16.
 
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Taking pills is easy. From what I have heard though taking pills the will actually kill you is really hard. Taking pills that will kill you quickly and painlessly is even harder. I would recommend finding another way sorry. I wish pills were easy so I could use them too but they aren't.
I don't really have any hope that drugs would kill me, but since they're easy to take, I'd be able to take them easier than I'd be able to do anything else, and it might make might so desperate and paranoid that I become reckless enough to do something that will actually kill me.
 
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I don't really have any hope that drugs would kill me, but since they're easy to take, I'd be able to take them easier than I'd be able to do anything else, and it might make might so desperate and paranoid that I become reckless enough to do something that will actually kill me.
Damn, can't really say I'm comfortable giving someone so young advice on this stuff. Although it's not up to me to do what I think is right, I trust that if you're not ready then you'll end up getting help through your actions. If you truly want to avoid being sectioned then I'd suggest not doing what you said.

but best of luck in whatever you choose, hope you don't suffer too much pain or anything.
 
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Damn, can't really say I'm comfortable giving someone so young advice on this stuff. Although it's not up to me to do what I think is right, I trust that if you're not ready then you'll end up getting help through your actions. If you truly want to avoid being sectioned then I'd suggest not doing what you said.

but best of luck in whatever you choose, hope you don't suffer too much pain or anything.
Thanks.
I'm probably going to by train anyway, as that's meant to be pretty reliable, but I'd probably have to feel like I'm about to be sectioned to do that so I feel desperate enough, or get drunk.
I'm not planning on getting help through my actions; I'm planning to die . I just feel like I'd need a day or something to actually motivate myself to do anything.
I'm really looking to avoid being sectioned ever again by dying. I'm just not sure if I could wait on the tracks unless I felt really out of it, or was sure that otherwise I'd die a long, painful death.
 
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Thanks.
I'm probably going to by train anyway, as that's meant to be pretty reliable, but I'd probably have to feel like I'm about to be sectioned to do that so I feel desperate enough, or get drunk.
I'm not planning on getting help through my actions; I'm planning to die . I just feel like I'd need a day or something to actually motivate myself to do anything.
I'm really looking to avoid being sectioned ever again by dying. I'm just not sure if I could wait on the tracks unless I felt really out of it, or was sure that otherwise I'd die a long, painful death.
Thing is I can only judge based on my own experience. and I remember feeling the same way and going through the same thoughts when I was 16. Don't want to seem condescending because I'm not trying to downplay or deny your feelings at all. but it took me much much longer to really feel ready. I ended up having opportunities to receive help between then and now, if I'd accessed that help better then I might have been in a different situation right now.

I loitered around train tracks overnight and ended up falling asleep then I woke up and left, I couldn't do it somehow. Went to a local bridge two days in a row and instead of researching and being absolutely sure about where I could access the bridge and jump, instead I showed warning signs and got picked up by the cops and locked up for 11 weeks.

Just be aware of the risks and the absolute consequences of what you decide to do please.
 
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Thing is I can only judge based on my own experience. and I remember feeling the same way and going through the same thoughts when I was 16. Don't want to seem condescending because I'm not trying to downplay or deny your feelings at all. but it took me much much longer to really feel ready. I ended up having opportunities to receive help between then and now, if I'd accessed that help better then I might have been in a different situation right now.

I loitered around train tracks overnight and ended up falling asleep then I woke up and left, I couldn't do it somehow. Went to a local bridge two days in a row and instead of researching and being absolutely sure about where I could access the bridge and jump, instead I showed warning signs and got picked up by the cops and locked up for 11 weeks.

Just be aware of the risks and the absolute consequences of what you decide to do please.
I'm not ready because of the survival instinct and fear of getting caught. I don't have hope that my situation will change. One of the main reasons I want to die is because of isolation. Well, I dislike most people and everyome tends to ignore me.
I've only ever had one person make an proper effort with me in my life, and they ended up ignoring me. My family ignores me when they don't argue with me. I have no friends to speak of, and I couldn't make any because I have no idea how, I'm near-mute and people ignore me.
Also, I'm not in college, and I wouldn't be able to find a job anyway because it'd be too stressful for me. The only job I'd want is an author or proofreader, but depression stops me from attaining that.
The pills don't work, and I don't think any would because my reasons for being depressed would still be there.
The only 'help' I get is being sectioned or argued with; I won't be sticking around to recieve 'help'.
I pretty much hate everything about society and am intolerant of so many things that it's just painful to be alive. I can't even stand watching people socialise.
I spend all day in my room on my own, and I don't have regular conversations with anyone.
I don't see how it could be worse than this; there's no better time to die.
I'm too paranoid and anxious and depressed to live without pain. And I can't change the past.
 
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