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chester
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- Aug 1, 2024
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I might be an idiot for caring about such things, especially that I have a perfectly good nitrogen setup at home and I can get myself killed in 5 minutes practically anytime I want.
BUT
I feel it's wrong. I know it wouldn't concern me, because I'd be dead, but somehow I still care about the impression I leave behind, and I don't want to be found with a bag on my head. I want people around me to think my death wasn't voluntary. At least I want to give it a try, it's not like I'm in a hurry, right? I think I found a way.
I'd like this thread to not only be about my idea, but I'm also interested in hearing about other methods.
It's a long shot, I do realize that, but hey, what do I have to lose? Worst case scenario, I'll go another way, especially that I have an alternative ready. So, get ready to laugh at me: licorice. Licorice and glycyrrhizin pills. Licorice candy to make it look like I'm dumb and had no idea, and the pills to actually get the job done. And yes, I can get my hands on actual licorice candy, and not just licorice flavored candy.
Why do I think this has a chance of working?
- I already have hypertension (around 140/90), which means I normally should probably stay away from the candy itself, not to mention the pills.
- Apart from the hypertension, there's something else wrong with my heart, I often get warnings on my smartwatch that my pulse is 120bpm while I'm sitting at my desk, barely moving.
- I live alone and I work from home. If anything happens to me, there's nobody to call an ambulance and I certainly won't.
What am I aiming at?
"Oh, poor chester, he was so devastated, he wanted to kill himself but he put on such a heroic fight to not do it, he was so strong. His heart couldn't take it anymore. And he should've known to stay away from licorice, but how could he have known?"
Do I know it won't be instant, painless and peaceful?
I know. And couldn't care less at this point. My fiancee's cancer also wasn't, so I don't mind. As long as I can be successful. Judging by the articles I've read, the people who survived, survived only because they were worried about their symptoms and went to the ER. So yeah, there's a very good chance it will be possible to save me, but the whole idea is that nobody will know I need saving. Ideally my heart will give up when I sleep, but maybe that's too much to wish for. We'll see how it goes.
I haven't found any discussion here about this, so I might be a licorice pioneer. Just to be clear, I don't have very high hopes with this method, but hey, if I'm gonna go anyway, might just as well do some research for the community, and who knows, maybe I'll actually save my face while I'm at it.
If anyone has any better idea, I'm more than happy to hear it. And no, I'm not interested in "accidents", I don't want anything drastic.
BUT
I feel it's wrong. I know it wouldn't concern me, because I'd be dead, but somehow I still care about the impression I leave behind, and I don't want to be found with a bag on my head. I want people around me to think my death wasn't voluntary. At least I want to give it a try, it's not like I'm in a hurry, right? I think I found a way.
I'd like this thread to not only be about my idea, but I'm also interested in hearing about other methods.
It's a long shot, I do realize that, but hey, what do I have to lose? Worst case scenario, I'll go another way, especially that I have an alternative ready. So, get ready to laugh at me: licorice. Licorice and glycyrrhizin pills. Licorice candy to make it look like I'm dumb and had no idea, and the pills to actually get the job done. And yes, I can get my hands on actual licorice candy, and not just licorice flavored candy.
Why do I think this has a chance of working?
- I already have hypertension (around 140/90), which means I normally should probably stay away from the candy itself, not to mention the pills.
- Apart from the hypertension, there's something else wrong with my heart, I often get warnings on my smartwatch that my pulse is 120bpm while I'm sitting at my desk, barely moving.
- I live alone and I work from home. If anything happens to me, there's nobody to call an ambulance and I certainly won't.
What am I aiming at?
"Oh, poor chester, he was so devastated, he wanted to kill himself but he put on such a heroic fight to not do it, he was so strong. His heart couldn't take it anymore. And he should've known to stay away from licorice, but how could he have known?"
Do I know it won't be instant, painless and peaceful?
I know. And couldn't care less at this point. My fiancee's cancer also wasn't, so I don't mind. As long as I can be successful. Judging by the articles I've read, the people who survived, survived only because they were worried about their symptoms and went to the ER. So yeah, there's a very good chance it will be possible to save me, but the whole idea is that nobody will know I need saving. Ideally my heart will give up when I sleep, but maybe that's too much to wish for. We'll see how it goes.
I haven't found any discussion here about this, so I might be a licorice pioneer. Just to be clear, I don't have very high hopes with this method, but hey, if I'm gonna go anyway, might just as well do some research for the community, and who knows, maybe I'll actually save my face while I'm at it.
If anyone has any better idea, I'm more than happy to hear it. And no, I'm not interested in "accidents", I don't want anything drastic.