Quitter
Member
- Sep 4, 2019
- 77
Hi, been lurking for a while and I'm weirdly excited and very nervous to make my first post.
I've been thinking about how and where to off myself. Ideally I'd have my body being found by the police, or someone like that. Definitely not my loved ones. But I'm scared of being found too soon. I want my first attempt to be my last one, if possible.
I have some savings. I've been thinking about booking a trip somewhere nice, maybe even out of the country. Would be cool to do something crazy when I have nothing to lose. But my social anxiety and lack of energy probably means I'll book a hotel room in my city, if that.
The idea of some poor cleaning lady finding my corpse makes me sad, but it's still better than people I know doing so. Hanging is probably how I'll go.. but then I thought, hey, I should get a room with a big bathtub and slit my wrists. Sounds nice on paper.
In my mind I would get really drunk, take a hot bath and use a razor. I assume the alcohol and hot water would make me bleed out faster, and the warmth would help with the shock that comes with blood loss? Is this a terrible idea as far as pain level and efficiency goes? Have I been watching way too many Hollywood films and this is merely some cliche, or would it actually work?
FYI I live in a country with extremely strict gun and medicine/drug regulations and they comb the mail pretty thoroughly here. I'm not interested in risking a criminal record or jail time. Even the land is too flat to find a nice cliff lol, so my options are rather limited.
I've been thinking about how and where to off myself. Ideally I'd have my body being found by the police, or someone like that. Definitely not my loved ones. But I'm scared of being found too soon. I want my first attempt to be my last one, if possible.
I have some savings. I've been thinking about booking a trip somewhere nice, maybe even out of the country. Would be cool to do something crazy when I have nothing to lose. But my social anxiety and lack of energy probably means I'll book a hotel room in my city, if that.
The idea of some poor cleaning lady finding my corpse makes me sad, but it's still better than people I know doing so. Hanging is probably how I'll go.. but then I thought, hey, I should get a room with a big bathtub and slit my wrists. Sounds nice on paper.
In my mind I would get really drunk, take a hot bath and use a razor. I assume the alcohol and hot water would make me bleed out faster, and the warmth would help with the shock that comes with blood loss? Is this a terrible idea as far as pain level and efficiency goes? Have I been watching way too many Hollywood films and this is merely some cliche, or would it actually work?
FYI I live in a country with extremely strict gun and medicine/drug regulations and they comb the mail pretty thoroughly here. I'm not interested in risking a criminal record or jail time. Even the land is too flat to find a nice cliff lol, so my options are rather limited.