Cashewmilk
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- Mar 10, 2020
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These days I especially love sleeping, alot, whenever I can. I don't care about showers or brushing my teeth or hair etc, just eat, sleep, chores and drug use. I'm so thankful for sleeping and being able to fall asleep. I use sleep aids like eye mask and white noise ear buds. I also put menthol balms on my eyelids and eyebones and my back/neck if it's sore, it's so extremely relaxing. I'm addicted to it. I've always loved sleeping since I was a little kid. That should tell you how much I hate life lol. I also found a new blanket I'm using just a bed sheet instead of a real blanket, sooo nice and cooling. Ahh, maybe that's why I got addicted to heroin it's definitely a sleepy drug. Stimulants are not my thing but I've done a lot of them before.
But for some reason these days I'm so looking forward to sleeping. My days are calm and mostly functional, I hate being asked to do things for people like chores though because it hurts my muscles and body. Sleeping is the closest thing to death, even though my dreams are crazy and I have an overactive painful bladder, I still cherish sleeping. I am definitely depressed, but not in a sad or crying way. I'm more just really really tired and not interested, I just want to go to my forever sleep.
But for some reason these days I'm so looking forward to sleeping. My days are calm and mostly functional, I hate being asked to do things for people like chores though because it hurts my muscles and body. Sleeping is the closest thing to death, even though my dreams are crazy and I have an overactive painful bladder, I still cherish sleeping. I am definitely depressed, but not in a sad or crying way. I'm more just really really tired and not interested, I just want to go to my forever sleep.