For me any kind of temporary sleep cannot bring any true relief as long as I wake again and as long as I exist I'll only hope for dreamless eternal sleep, for me non-existence is the only peace where there is no more pain and no more suffering with all finally gone and forgotten, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again. I'd never wish for this cruel, torturous existence rather all I want is to be unconscious for all eternity, I suffer just from being awake, I only hope for some peace, I just want to rest.