Discussion Significance of your CTB date

[Onlyborrowedtime]

Title says it all really. What's the significance of your CTB date? Is there any hidden/unusual meaning behind it or was it just a day picked at random?

Personally I want to end it on my birthday. I like the idea of weird symmetry. A perfect cycle of life and death. In an ideal world I would die at the exact time I was born for perfect symmetry. Although I'm away that would be near impossible to do.

 

[maka]

Mine is just random for now. I was planning to do it on my birthday, but decided I'm not quite ready yet. Then a minor inconvenience happened and I planned to do it tomorrow (the day before my birthday), but decided that was too close. Now I'm planning for the weekend before graduation, just because I don't want to be there.

 

[AlreadyGone]

I personally will not choose a date as I find that it is harder to stick to a date. It will happen when I am ready.

 

[akrasia]

I planned to do it on my birthday as well the same reason as you (i thought i was the only one who thinks it's cool to die on the day you were born). When that day came, I realize I wasn't ready. I set a couple of dates and didn't really fulfill them. I guess i'll ctb whenever I think i'm ready.

 

[TAW122]

I don't have a "fixed" date because circumstances and variables may change, thus forcing me to have to postpone or change the date(s). Right now, I plan to CTB in the 2nd half of 2020, but no exact date yet as it's still far from now and there are still many variables and unknowns in the future. It's not about recovery though (I'm well past the point of recovery and don't wish to give life another chance, just want to find permanent peace/nothingness), but more of inconveniences and unexpected changes that occur that may alter my plans, therefore, I'm giving myself a bit of flexibility to work with.

So far my criteria is not within the first half of 2020, but in the second half, finishing a few important things and tying some loose ends; includes making peace with various things in life in order to "let go" easier, and more, then in the second half, finding a right venue, right timing, and also getting things all settled.

 

[faust]

Well, it should have been my birthday, but I cannot be 100% sure that I will able to CTB on my birthday, because everything depends on preparations and how long it will take to get a substance for a method. Plus my CTB will require some money, so there is no guarantee I will be ready on exact day

 

[xBrialesana]

I didn't have a specific date because I was going to try to hold off until May (I bought concert tickets to try to make myself wait)

But I realized I can't hold off and I'm choosinf Friday, March 13 which is a really dark and significant day for things that have happened and I'm ready to go then

I would go sooner but I just have shit to get together first

 

[faust]

I didn't have a specific date because I was going to try to hold off until May (I bought concert tickets to try to make myself wait)

But I realized I can't hold off and I'm choosinf Friday, March 13 which is a really dark and significant day for things that have happened and I'm ready to go then

I would go sooner but I just have shit to get together first

Oh, I remember March 13th... It is a date of my regret. I could share my first kiss with a lovely person. My life could be way different...

 

[voyager]

Yes, I've set dates before, obviously never kept them. My last was last year, because it was the 25th anniversary of my mhi and some other things, so I retraced my life from that time before. Got lazy though in spring last year, began to procrastinate and knew I wouldn't be able to stick to it. It's a pity, but really in the grand scheme of things irrelevant.

And yet I have set myself a new date this year, have discovered something about my life and that too is an anniversary and is, like the opening post said, coming full circle. If I can't keep i though it's fine and I won't beat myself up about it. Planning to do it this year though, second half.