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noname223
Angelic
- Aug 18, 2020
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If one says oneself has destroyed the life I think one should try to forgive. I think many people here struggle to be kind to themselves. Me included.
Though I rather think other people destroyed my life. My parents and bullies. I rather could forgive my parents not the bullies. My parents are simply stupid as fuck. However I think there is evil in them otherwise one would not treat another human being in such a cruel way. I mean who beats up children at the age of 5 every single day. Especially my mom acted like a psychopath. But I don't think she is one. Rather real jerks or morons. They ruined not only my life they are also affected by the consequences. The consequences for me are way worse though. But they will have to live with their both ill children together in poverty. Or they will have to cope with my suicide. Both probably sucks.
Others here in this forum told me teenagers or children are simply cruel. That is just human nature, If this is human nature I become a misanthrope. Actually I dislike most teenagers due to my awful experiences. It is one reason why I never want to procreate.
I cannot forgive these people. I want to forget these people as good as possible but they haunt me in my nightmares. I was bullied mostly due to obesitiy. It traumatized me. But the domestic abuse also led to my horrible life. The consequencs for me are lethal. I think such stories were the reaosn why people invented religion. There should be justice in the afterlife. Though I don't believe in that. The nothingness is more comforting for me anyway. Noone is a saint I suppose. Some religions claim people who ctb go hell. I was very scared about that when I thought about afterlife.
Though I rather think other people destroyed my life. My parents and bullies. I rather could forgive my parents not the bullies. My parents are simply stupid as fuck. However I think there is evil in them otherwise one would not treat another human being in such a cruel way. I mean who beats up children at the age of 5 every single day. Especially my mom acted like a psychopath. But I don't think she is one. Rather real jerks or morons. They ruined not only my life they are also affected by the consequences. The consequences for me are way worse though. But they will have to live with their both ill children together in poverty. Or they will have to cope with my suicide. Both probably sucks.
Others here in this forum told me teenagers or children are simply cruel. That is just human nature, If this is human nature I become a misanthrope. Actually I dislike most teenagers due to my awful experiences. It is one reason why I never want to procreate.
I cannot forgive these people. I want to forget these people as good as possible but they haunt me in my nightmares. I was bullied mostly due to obesitiy. It traumatized me. But the domestic abuse also led to my horrible life. The consequencs for me are lethal. I think such stories were the reaosn why people invented religion. There should be justice in the afterlife. Though I don't believe in that. The nothingness is more comforting for me anyway. Noone is a saint I suppose. Some religions claim people who ctb go hell. I was very scared about that when I thought about afterlife.
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