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- Aug 18, 2020
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Currently, I read Yukio Mishima's Life for sale.
Only afterwards I realized that the author is an icone for the far right. I only read it because I am depressed and suicidal again. The woman I text with did not text me back. The whole day. This is the first time ever. Zero messages by her side. She told me she has time periods where she needs to be alone. However, our time together decreased over the last 3 weeks rapidly. I have some theories for that. But she denied everything. I think she might lie to me but why. Lying to me hurts so much more than the truth.
I am so so so fucking sad. I still have hope that our communication normalizes. But this hope dies more and more. Today on a Saturday we usually text the most because she has the most freetime. But she did not reply at all. On her full work days she even sent me two messages. Messages that might took 5 seconds each.
First I thought I could stomach that rejection. But I got so fucking depressed today. The book is fascinating though.
Only afterwards I realized that the author is an icone for the far right. I only read it because I am depressed and suicidal again. The woman I text with did not text me back. The whole day. This is the first time ever. Zero messages by her side. She told me she has time periods where she needs to be alone. However, our time together decreased over the last 3 weeks rapidly. I have some theories for that. But she denied everything. I think she might lie to me but why. Lying to me hurts so much more than the truth.
I am so so so fucking sad. I still have hope that our communication normalizes. But this hope dies more and more. Today on a Saturday we usually text the most because she has the most freetime. But she did not reply at all. On her full work days she even sent me two messages. Messages that might took 5 seconds each.
First I thought I could stomach that rejection. But I got so fucking depressed today. The book is fascinating though.