Well I generally agree with both
@ExhaustedExistence and
@WornOutLife BUT..BUT you have not mentioned if you are getting/seeking help at all. That to me is one of the pivotal questions at least for me. I am 65 years young and have had suicidal thoughts for most of my life and 2 attempts so far. I truly care about you as a global family member and only want the best for you. Part of the aspect of life is options. I never have a issue if someone asks me about my mental health because I figure let that person show me if they really care and have empathy or not. Easy to judge, hard to understand is what I tell people. Take care and I wish you a beautiful sunny day!!! Walter