Should I kill myself?

[StrawberryBlood]

No one understands me. My life is miserable. I'm more often angry than anything else. I have violent thoughts and tendencies. Seeing people happy often makes me feel worse unless I like you as a person. I don't like modern society. I can't keep a job without not sleeping and throwing my health down the shitter. I am disgusting. I am disturbing. People are uncomfortable and scared of me. I can't be what I want to be and I never will be. Should I just kill myself? I'm also a nutcase who hears voices and I think they're real. I think they're angels. I think they're real even though they're probably not. Should I just kill myself? I've been depressed and angry since I was born. I've been suicidal since I was twelve. Should I just kill myself?

 

[ilovenewyork]

How about living the experience you were given? to the best of your ability. No resentment.

Life is very challenging for everyone and this is the hand you've been dealt

 

[StrawberryBlood]

How about living the experience you were given? to the best of your ability. No resentment.

Life is very challenging for everyone and this is the hand you've been dealt

thank you I'm cured
How about why should I live the experience I was given? What if it isn't fucking worth it?

 

[Unlucky777]

Totally up to you what you want to do. I've been suicidal since 12 also. I'm 45 now. I'm still here. Not quite ready to go tho, I'm sticking around

 

[ilovenewyork]

It's all you have

 

[nihilisticmystics]

that's up to you

 

[MyLastTour]

It's entirely your choice, but I don't necessarily think you should die. Try not to impose upon yourself beyond what you have to. It does become very difficult to justify choosing to live at a certain point though, even if some things can make it feel worth it for a while.

Meds have some ups and downs to them, but they can sometimes help if you haven't looked at them. It's an option if nothing else, one which might not necessarily have a lot of downsides if you just want to see how they effect you.

By the way, I also fucking hate where the world's at and where it's going.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm sorry you have so much on your plate. It's seems understandable you would want an end to it. As to whether you should though- that has to be your choice. Only you can really decide on which path you want to pursue. I don't think either living or dying are necessarily easy.

I suppose though- on principle- anyone at all that has to ask others whether they should kill themselves- my knee jerk reaction would be- no. If they aren't willing to make that decision themselves then- there is obviously uncertainty around it. I think we ought to be sure in ourselves about the decision- before doing it.

But then- maybe that's worth exploring. Why is there the need to ask others? Do you suspect there may be alternative treatments or life paths you could take? Do you want confirmation that your reasons are 'serious' enough? But then, does that mean you don't feel they are?

Ultimately though, asides from being against the rules- people don't tend to encourage suicide here. The vast majority of people here are pro choice. The emphasis being on the individual to come to their own choice.

 

[Systemic]

You shouldn't ask other people that. It is a huge pressure. You are making deeply personal and permanent decision and nobody except you should have to deal/live with your choice.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I think, if you have to ask, then the answer is "no" or at least "not yet". When a person is ready, there is no doubt in their mind. It's like something that already happened and reality is just catching up.

 

[StrawberryBlood]

It's entirely your choice, but I don't necessarily think you should die. Try not to impose upon yourself beyond what you have to. It does become very difficult to justify choosing to live at a certain point though, even if some things can make it feel worth it for a while.

Meds have some ups and downs to them, but they can sometimes help if you haven't looked at them. It's an option if nothing else, one which might not necessarily have a lot of downsides if you just want to see how they effect you.

By the way, I also fucking hate where the world's at and where it's going.

I am on meds but still going in and out of crisis.
The world is so disappointing.

I'm sorry you have so much on your plate. It's seems understandable you would want an end to it. As to whether you should though- that has to be your choice. Only you can really decide on which path you want to pursue. I don't think either living or dying are necessarily easy.

I suppose though- on principle- anyone at all that has to ask others whether they should kill themselves- my knee jerk reaction would be- no. If they aren't willing to make that decision themselves then- there is obviously uncertainty around it. I think we ought to be sure in ourselves about the decision- before doing it.

But then- maybe that's worth exploring. Why is there the need to ask others? Do you suspect there may be alternative treatments or life paths you could take? Do you want confirmation that your reasons are 'serious' enough? But then, does that mean you don't feel they are?

Ultimately though, asides from being against the rules- people don't tend to encourage suicide here. The vast majority of people here are pro choice. The emphasis being on the individual to come to their own choice.

I am uncertain.

I don't really know why I asked others. I don't know what I want. I guess I wanna know whether or not I should kill myself. It's that simple I think. I think I'm also hoping for something. I don't know what. Just anything. Even just getting replies.

 

[Seneca65AD]

I think, if you have to ask, then the answer is "no" or at least "not yet". When a person is ready, there is no doubt in their mind. It's like something that already happened and reality is just catching up.

This aligns with my perspective. Suicide, as I see it, is an act of sober reflection. Whether I'm at my lowest mood or my frustration level is off the chart, I step back and realize now is not the time to make a permanent decision regarding my life on this earth. Let the process play out and then make a decision.

I don't really know why I asked others. I don't know what I want. I guess I wanna know whether or not I should kill myself. It's that simple I think. I think I'm also hoping for something. I don't know what. Just anything. Even just getting replies.

There's your answer. "No" . What you chose to do with the answer is up to you.