ArchmagePrincess
Magical Princess of Death
- Aug 31, 2022
- 145
Sorry, this is like, half a question half venting.
Every step forward I take in this process the more hopeless I feel. As I do research I'm told the system is intentionally designed to get you to give up and that it's even harder to get approved with mental health issues versus physical. I genuinely have too many panic attacks and too much paranoia to even get to a job every day, but it's still this massive hurdle to get onto SSI.
I don't have a family who could house me while I wait the 2-3 years on a decision, and I even consider going to college and using student loans to pay for rent but I'm told going to school at all can hurt your case.
I don't want to be homeless, my paranoia in a shelter would not be something I can tolerate, but I'm not even sure what I'm expected to do. I was trying to look at work-from-home jobs since it might be doable for me, but I've been applying for months and I've barely even gotten the courtesy of rejection emails. Even if I got a job I'm not sure if I could keep it if panic attacks interrupt my work.
I'd rather CTB than become homeless, and I really feel like if I could just get on SSI I'd be able to live an okay life, poverty isn't new to me, but damn every turn seems to be more bad news. I don't even fundamentally dislike life, I just know with my mental health issues being at a homeless shelter would be torture for me.
I wish there was a way I could just survive in poverty in peace, in some dingy apartment, but I feel like that's not even within reach.
Every step forward I take in this process the more hopeless I feel. As I do research I'm told the system is intentionally designed to get you to give up and that it's even harder to get approved with mental health issues versus physical. I genuinely have too many panic attacks and too much paranoia to even get to a job every day, but it's still this massive hurdle to get onto SSI.
I don't have a family who could house me while I wait the 2-3 years on a decision, and I even consider going to college and using student loans to pay for rent but I'm told going to school at all can hurt your case.
I don't want to be homeless, my paranoia in a shelter would not be something I can tolerate, but I'm not even sure what I'm expected to do. I was trying to look at work-from-home jobs since it might be doable for me, but I've been applying for months and I've barely even gotten the courtesy of rejection emails. Even if I got a job I'm not sure if I could keep it if panic attacks interrupt my work.
I'd rather CTB than become homeless, and I really feel like if I could just get on SSI I'd be able to live an okay life, poverty isn't new to me, but damn every turn seems to be more bad news. I don't even fundamentally dislike life, I just know with my mental health issues being at a homeless shelter would be torture for me.
I wish there was a way I could just survive in poverty in peace, in some dingy apartment, but I feel like that's not even within reach.