Venting Should i just do it already

[SenelXamano]

It's been months. I've felt like shit for months. All my friends have hated me for months. And I've had to get daily reminders of what ruined any progress I was making for months. It's a fucking joke I'm here right now. I should've done it the first week I started feeling like this like I planned. What the fuck is the point of being here. I wanted to get better I really did but I know now my life is a sick ffucking joke. Fucking hilarious how my best friend stopped talking to me for a while fucking month. Came back for a day, said we'd hang out again the next day but not it's been 2 weeks and he hasn't even responded to my fucking texts. I fuckingnmiss him. And I get daily reminders of how he's probably talking to her every morning every noon every night every text she sends I'm sure he responds and he probably even actively tries to talk to her. I just want to give up. I just want it to end. I only have painkillers antipsycotics and ecitalopram what are my odds with those

 

[weallhaveourghosts]

It's been months. I've felt like shit for months. All my friends have hated me for months. And I've had to get daily reminders of what ruined any progress I was making for months. It's a fucking joke I'm here right now. I should've done it the first week I started feeling like this like I planned. What the fuck is the point of being here. I wanted to get better I really did but I know now my life is a sick ffucking joke. Fucking hilarious how my best friend stopped talking to me for a while fucking month. Came back for a day, said we'd hang out again the next day but not it's been 2 weeks and he hasn't even responded to my fucking texts. I fuckingnmiss him. And I get daily reminders of how he's probably talking to her every morning every noon every night every text she sends I'm sure he responds and he probably even actively tries to talk to her. I just want to give up. I just want it to end. I only have painkillers antipsycotics and ecitalopram what are my odds with those

As a seasoned OD attempter just don't try it. I know it may feel like it'll work in the moment especially seeing how intense your emotions are just through this post but you'll end up sick and even more disappointed. Not worth it in my opinion but that's just me.