Archness
Defective Personel
- Jan 20, 2023
- 578
Alright. Originally "Archness" was my online ID for my "Edgy Writings". It was soo rarely used @ all, just an invisible blog. But even back then, I was open about wanting to kill myself.
Now here I am in SaSu, with no notable works AT ALL. Looking back, it was quite silly I acted as if I was some kind of writer, or with any related merit. No, I could feel how crappy whatever I type is; it takes forever to draft, edit, revise, etc, not due to breath/depth, but cuz I'm too damn slow.
If I really had the choice and power, I'd be making animations, games, maybe even live action stuff, maybe even /w a team behind me. But no, I can't do that, I'm not even worthy of the ppl or resources those things would need.
Instead, at best I could work with text. I can't help but leer a bit at ppl who could create more then words on a screen.
But I digress (this might be continued on my blog)....
I still somewhat wish to make an attempt at a writing project. However, it's not directly rly about suicide or myself (work of fiction). But it's also not fit to be a source of $$$ or even for a resume (I'm not a writer after all). I could connect that work to this identity, w/o missing out on anything (opportunities etc). But I also worry about it getting out of control and a fanbase outside of SaSu etc to be made.
I'm considering connecting it to this identity bc this is "The real me". It would have a piece of my soul in it, you know? Something like that would fit the name "Archness" much more then my physical body and legal name.
It's just my thoughts on the matter. I'd like other ppls opinions, thoughts, advice, etc on this matter.
Now here I am in SaSu, with no notable works AT ALL. Looking back, it was quite silly I acted as if I was some kind of writer, or with any related merit. No, I could feel how crappy whatever I type is; it takes forever to draft, edit, revise, etc, not due to breath/depth, but cuz I'm too damn slow.
If I really had the choice and power, I'd be making animations, games, maybe even live action stuff, maybe even /w a team behind me. But no, I can't do that, I'm not even worthy of the ppl or resources those things would need.
Instead, at best I could work with text. I can't help but leer a bit at ppl who could create more then words on a screen.
But I digress (this might be continued on my blog)....
I still somewhat wish to make an attempt at a writing project. However, it's not directly rly about suicide or myself (work of fiction). But it's also not fit to be a source of $$$ or even for a resume (I'm not a writer after all). I could connect that work to this identity, w/o missing out on anything (opportunities etc). But I also worry about it getting out of control and a fanbase outside of SaSu etc to be made.
I'm considering connecting it to this identity bc this is "The real me". It would have a piece of my soul in it, you know? Something like that would fit the name "Archness" much more then my physical body and legal name.
It's just my thoughts on the matter. I'd like other ppls opinions, thoughts, advice, etc on this matter.
