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ms-lovely
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- Jun 22, 2024
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When it comes to my situation, I'm pretty sure nobody thinks I plan to end my life or that there's anything wrong with it as it currently stands. I have a great relationship with my family, graduated college, most people consider me as good looking, have good friends who care about me, and I am an active person who maintains a healthy routine of sports and exercise. I have hobbies (dancing, rollerblading, tennis, trailing—you name it) and I travel once or twice a year. All that helps make things a bit more interesting, but I am constantly uninterested in life. So I don't think anyone is going to see this coming. I'm not particularly sad, but I should add that I am bored of everything. I always have been, but I think I have adapted myself to fit into the life I have, never feeling fulfilled. First attempt to ctb i was in my teens was drowning failed, second i was already in my adulthood rat poising also failed but became extremely ill for a long time.
I have a partner who cares about me deeply. Our relationship is as good as one can be, and there is very little negative about our relationship. I love him deeply as well, but I wonder if I should leave him before I ctb. I want him to be happy, and honestly, I want everybody to be happy after I'm no longer here. It sucks because I know this is not something they see coming, and I just want to minimize the damage that I'm going to cause to all my loved ones.
Next week I should be receiving SN, and my 30th birthday is on the 20th of July, I plan to celebrate my birthday with my loved ones and then just ctb a day or two after. I'm hopping they will be left with a good memory of me. And also the sensitive dates to grieve will be very close together, I think that's good removing the necessity to grieve on two separe occasions, since my birthday and ctb date will be close together.
Not sure if thats a good plan, how would you go about it if you were in my place?
I have a partner who cares about me deeply. Our relationship is as good as one can be, and there is very little negative about our relationship. I love him deeply as well, but I wonder if I should leave him before I ctb. I want him to be happy, and honestly, I want everybody to be happy after I'm no longer here. It sucks because I know this is not something they see coming, and I just want to minimize the damage that I'm going to cause to all my loved ones.
Next week I should be receiving SN, and my 30th birthday is on the 20th of July, I plan to celebrate my birthday with my loved ones and then just ctb a day or two after. I'm hopping they will be left with a good memory of me. And also the sensitive dates to grieve will be very close together, I think that's good removing the necessity to grieve on two separe occasions, since my birthday and ctb date will be close together.
Not sure if thats a good plan, how would you go about it if you were in my place?