ScorpiusDragon

ScorpiusDragon

Mage
Mar 25, 2019
593
I've been with my boyfriend for 2 years. He loves me very much and he has tried everything to try to help me. If I killed myself, I know he'd be devastated. He's the only reason I haven't ended this joke of an existence. I love him, but I can't do this anymore.
A part of me wishes he'd fall out of love with me. It would be easier.
 
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Egddios

Egddios

Specialist
Oct 27, 2018
395
I broke things off a few days ago, my boyfriend and I had been together a bit over a year and love each other very much. As much as part of me wants to try to piece things back together, I know ultimately I'm gearing up to end my life and I'll be gone soon. This is the part that's most lonely, but then I think, and remember, I've been here before. Here meaning alone, and with each day that passes I am more and more ready. I miss him dearly and I also know I'm exhausted to hang on much longer. So, these are my end stages. Winding down. Going out solo.
 
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Kikoo Loool

Kikoo Loool

Enlightened
Feb 25, 2019
1,128
No one should live only for others, shouldn't they? I'm rooted to life by my daughter and, of course, there's no break up possible.
 
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Nanimoaru

Nanimoaru

I wanna fade away like I never was
Sep 15, 2018
153
I've been with my boyfriend for 2 years. He loves me very much and he has tried everything to try to help me. If I killed myself, I know he'd be devastated. He's the only reason I haven't ended this joke of an existence. I love him, but I can't do this anymore.
A part of me wishes he'd fall out of love with me. It would be easier.
Same but I lost my love, he found another chick
To quote John Legend "I'm ready to go right now"
 
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bigj75

bigj75

“From Knowledge springs power."
Sep 1, 2018
2,540
No one should live only for others, shouldn't they? I'm rooted to life by my daughter and, of course, there's no break up possible.
It really depends. children are greatly effected by the death of a parent. it's in the child's best interest if you continue to live as long as you can. but it is understandable that if it's too unbearable for you to continue living then nobody should be forced to continue to live in that condition.
 
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NotSure

NotSure

Lost in thought
Apr 17, 2019
35
It's sad to think you could love someone so much, but not tell them how you feel, to not try to get help. They would likely give their lives for you, but you'd rather throw it away? I'm not saying to live solely for someone else, but can you not try harder for someone you love so dearly? If not, then I'm doubting how real it was.
 
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Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
3,622
No one should live only for others, shouldn't they? I'm rooted to life by my daughter and, of course, there's no break up possible.
I don't know about that. I do not know. If your lifes already over devoting the rest to some worthy cause seems the only reason to continue.
 
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magick'sgone

magick'sgone

And so on it goes....
May 16, 2019
125
I broke up with my (suicidal) gf because I felt disingenuous convincing her that life was worth living (even though I believed it was for her). How could I tell someone to keep fighting when I didn't feel that way myself? Then I found out a close family member of mine was sick and that meant I couldn't ctb yet. I drove past her place and saw her passionately embracing the guy who I had been told was "just a friend". Now he's moved in with her, and it looks very much like it was going on before we broke up. Hahaha. Still don't regret the decision, or the reasons. It's better to affect the least amount of people with such a serious act. Just be sure that you intend to and are able to follow through on your plans. Adding heartbreak to the present situation really fucking sucks.
 
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Wayfaerer

Wayfaerer

JFMSUF
Aug 21, 2019
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It really depends. children are greatly effected by the death of a parent. it's in the child's best interest if you continue to live as long as you can. but it is understandable that if it's too unbearable for you to continue living then nobody should be forced to continue to live in that condition.

I'm sure that's true but at least in my case it most likely would've been beneficial in the long run if my mother off'd herself when I was a baby like she would've if she didn't get on medication, as she says. It probably would've been less traumatic overall and I'd be a lot less fucked up.
 
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