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Verodv
Fight or flight
- Aug 15, 2021
- 44
Disclaimer: I'm not native in english so pls bear with me or pass.
I don't have good memories of my childhood, I was abused and I devoted my entire life to prove them wrong. I'm lucky to live in a country with free healtcare and university. When I read of those of you who can't access to meds or terapy my heart bleed.
So finally I managed to have both a good career and three children and a house with garden all around.
I work from home since I can't stand relating with people outside job matters. I was diagnosed with BPD and PTDS so basically I just don't have any skin or protections, I'm easely fooled and even robbed.
Despite the hell I'm living in, my children seems to develop in a normal way. Occasionaly I make a check up with a psy with the excuse of the divorce. Their teachers are enthusiastic.
So here the question:
At what point they will realized I'm not only very tired? That my panic attack are not headache? That I relay on a 9 years old to look after a 2 yo if I'm KO?
Their father married another woman last week. I'm thinking to ctb but after I spent I whole life in pain just to let them have one better, I really need advice on how to explain it's for the better.
I don't have good memories of my childhood, I was abused and I devoted my entire life to prove them wrong. I'm lucky to live in a country with free healtcare and university. When I read of those of you who can't access to meds or terapy my heart bleed.
So finally I managed to have both a good career and three children and a house with garden all around.
I work from home since I can't stand relating with people outside job matters. I was diagnosed with BPD and PTDS so basically I just don't have any skin or protections, I'm easely fooled and even robbed.
Despite the hell I'm living in, my children seems to develop in a normal way. Occasionaly I make a check up with a psy with the excuse of the divorce. Their teachers are enthusiastic.
So here the question:
At what point they will realized I'm not only very tired? That my panic attack are not headache? That I relay on a 9 years old to look after a 2 yo if I'm KO?
Their father married another woman last week. I'm thinking to ctb but after I spent I whole life in pain just to let them have one better, I really need advice on how to explain it's for the better.