Venting Short vent about loneliness

[sadlyexisting]

I am so fucking done with all of this. I am so alone, like constantly, while everyone else around me is enjoying their lifes with their friends or partners. I can be happy when I can even call with someone online for a while, I hate being this lonely and pathetic. This whole feeling is really tearing me apart so badly, but at the same time I also feel nothing, like just total emptiness. It feels fucking terrible man, I can't even explain it.

It's like I am losing all of my social skills, if it weren't for school I'd probably never even go out the door anymore. I want to meet new people and make friends, but I just don't know how to communicate with people anymore. To that is my severe social anxiety that makes me literally unable to get a word out in front of new people, it's gone to the point I can barely even post on this forum without feeling sickly anxious. I feel like I have lost every basic emotional function of a human being now. It's insane.

I just want to die, but the only method I have available to me (partial hanging) is failing me so miserably. I just wanna get out of this living hell, why did I even need to get born if my life would end up making me a dysfunctional, miserable and just utterly lonely human? I don't understand. Life feels like nothing but a horrible, unbearable joke.

 

[LilyLaroux2000]

I was in a place like this. Lonely. For so long I lost my mind.

So I understand what you mean and Im here to be your friend and teach you how to make friends in real life, Im currently learning how to keep them so we can learn that together.

Of course only if youd like to.

 

[CallmeWill4719]

I know what loneliness can do to a person. So many times I feel so pathetic how I can't even make friends in real life but I have/had quite a few online. Even have a boyfriend but it's still not the same as in person. I know that might sound entirely ungrateful. My point is, yeah I suck with people in person. It's like a cruel joke not being able to touch someone that actually deems you worthy of their time.

Same as you, I've looked into the partial hanging method. Even practice plenty of time. Been a while since I've done that. As much as my family gets tired of my depression, they would rather not lose me. My patience with life gets shorter every month I swear.

Here to talk if you want to.

 

[legoshi]

I relate to all of this. I'm forever lonely and my social skills are nonexistent. It's really hard going through this life thing alone. I'm about done with it.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

I'm horribly lonely since I lost my marriage and friendships last year due to a manic episode. I'm terrible at making friends, so the only way I ever met anybody I really connected with was through romantic relationships. Have you considered putting up profiles on dating sites with the "friends only" option checked?