Venting Shitty treatment

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Has anyone else had horrible experiences with treatment? I was really trying to give life another shot but nothing seems to help bc all these programs are just awful. At my current one it took two weeks to get a new med and now I've been off a med that I actually need for like a week bc the order was never sent in. I feel like I'm losing my mind. The therapist said she was worried about me going home like this but she didn't give me any other fucking options. I've been in treatment for 6 months now and I feel the same as I did before I went in. Hospitals, res, partial- all useless. I really do want to get better but I don't know how. I have no other resources. I feel like I'm meant to die.