Shittiest Christmas

[Supersadmommy90]

This year takes the fruit cake as the worst Christmas of my life, ever. It's worse than the year my mom died on December 17th. I'm old enough now to be able to just take it all in and really look at the wreckage surrounding me. If it doesn't get better this year I don't know that I'll continue posting in the Recovery forum but I'll give it this year and then reassess. I feel like I'm really just having to leave the ball in God's court as to how my life will turn out in 2020. Oh ye of little faith as they say. I really do pray and supplicate to the Almighty with you reading this as my witnesses, let this be my prayer, that for this year those of us trying to recover be able to regain our strength and ability to live. Some things are going to need to improve for me or God knows I'm fucking toast because I'm just not strong enough to endure certain ongoing trends... I was made a sensitive soul and I can't help but feeling the pain that is my rightful due, deeply. The odd thing is, I don't feel I even deserve to recover, I really earned my depression in life. I do want to recover some measure of happiness but I don't think I deserve to and I don't expect to, I just hope to.

 

[Sensei]

I'm sorry to hear that your Christmas sucked. That goes for many people around here, I'm afraid. What was it that made this Christmas particularly bad?

You obviously have faith in God, so I wonder, have you tried finding solace in a congregation/parish? A priest could give you advice on how to sort out your life.

You don't deserve you're depression. I don't think anyone does. What makes you think so?

 

[Jean4]

This has been a particularly bad year for many of us, if that is comforting to you. Know you aren't alone.

 

[snorli]

I don't want to whine and I'll spare you the details, but 2019 was probably the worst year of my life . Thanks for all the kind words. I'm trying my best to give back and help others, but I feel so inadequate . Anyway, I'll try my best: love and hugs and all the best possible outcomes for all you, from the bottom of my heart .

 

[mediocre]

I'm so sorry about your mum that's horrible

this year has been the absolute worst for me too everything has gone to hell. All my hope has been lost. I am here for you if you need to talk

 

[Azzy69]

OP is your name from the Bob Dylan song?!

 

[Final Escape]

Indeed it was a brutal Christmas. I was white knuckling it. Feeling like I had to really compose myself around the friends I was with.

 

[Mloureiro]

This year has been the worst year of my life....