Venting Shits so lonely xd

[Drybones]

So I'm not suicidal rn... I just sorta want to vent and relate if anyone feels in similar circumstances to me

I'm 31M living in the UK and I live totally alone I have autism so it's near close to impossible to make friends with some people. I really struggle socially I'm so tired of trying to make friends and half the people are not socially invested. I started to think oh I'm just not the type of person that can make friends. I don't have any family either, both parents are sorta narcissistic and I've already had other parts of my family already weaponized against me.

Sorta really tired with feeling not good enough for anything in life xD. It's extremely lonely I have literally nobody in my life other than my ex partner hiring private investigators to constantly watch me/harass me for absolutely no reason whatsoever other than to try ruin my life (been going on for 7 years now) constantly being catfished by people she's getting to harass me. Can't meet anyone can't speak to anyone online because it could be to do with her. She has family in the cops so yeah... Can't go to them XD. (I pretty much stopped giving a shit about all this years ago anyhow can't change the actions of other people only your own.)

Nobody cares. I'm a very emotionally built person I try to put lots of energy and emotion into any relationship (friend/more) it gets very exhausting to get absolutely nothing back. Puts me off even meeting someone new because I just don't want to waste anymore time/energy... Bleh life is meaningless pointless I literally crave connection and I can't get it no-matter what I do.

Sick of smoking that devils lettuce shit to numb things and feel better...

Is this lonely society just the way things are now? Should I stop trying to make friends or should I just buckle up and do my own thing from now on? Gets boring and repetitive trying to distract from my depression and loneliness just gaming all the time >.<

Hello by the way Sanctioned Suicide.

 

[EmptyBottle]

Welcome to SaSu,
I'm 21M, have wished CTB in the past tho hardly wish it anymore.
The only consolation is that PIs are expensive so the ex would be wasting their $$... and getting hardly anything in return. By choosing a different username here compared to other services, it reduces the chances of the PI knowing about here (posts in the private section are even harder to find). They cannot see through closed windows... also you may be able to consult a no-win-no-fee lawyer for advice on the PI situation.

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[Drybones]

Welcome to SaSu,
I'm 21M, have wished CTB in the past tho hardly wish it anymore.
The only consolation is that PIs are expensive so the ex would be wasting their $$... and getting hardly anything in return. By choosing a different username here compared to other services, it reduces the chances of the PI knowing about here (posts in the private section are even harder to find). They cannot see through closed windows... also you may be able to consult a no-win-no-fee lawyer for advice on the PI situation.

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Yeah I was the exact same I was like super wanting to CTB but now I'm just like content with being alive playing games and such :3 Just a shame it's so difficult to get connection with other people

thx for the tips

Honestly I don't really care what the PI's find out about me and yea her family is pretty rich >.< She's done this to other exes and such so meh hah (shrug) (hiya assholes have a nice time watching paint dry) lmao

 

[EmptyBottle]

Yeah I was the exact same I was like super wanting to CTB but now I'm just like content with being alive playing games and such :3 Just a shame it's so difficult to get connection with other people

thx for the tips

Honestly I don't really care what the PI's find out about me and yea her family is pretty rich >.< She's done this to other exes and such so meh hah (shrug) (hiya assholes have a nice time watching paint dry) lmao

I am also content with being alive... nice to find another user here who feels similar. And yep, connections are sometimes tricky.

No worries :)

I'm also not too concerned with my posts being searchable outside the site. I put a little distance between my other usernames and here... and my other usernames have some distance from my name, etc.

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[At The Bus Stop]

Hey welcome!

As someone who doesn't have autism, I know there is a strange stereotype about how difficult they can be. But I think your message shows you why the effort in learning how you and/or any one else with autism works is worth the time - the love and appreciation you would get in return for showing kindness and respect would be endless.

I've only been around a few people with autism, and it has varied from severe to mild. Some of them are very difficult to communicate with, especially as someone who's not experienced with it. But when you are able to get a conversation flowing - they are some of the most unique people you can meet.

Have you tried sourcing discord servers that focus on neurological gaming communities? I'm in one, but I think most people there are ADHD, but I can't say I've spoken to everyone. But, the idea is to create a space for likeminded people such as yourself who find it difficult to build friendships and just make friends through gaming.

Not to hijack, but I struggle to make friends also, and I don't even have autism - so I have no excuses sadly!

Big respect for posting here though!