Story Shit just gets worse

[Geodude77]

This is going to be a continuation of my second to last thread (https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/3-years-later-and-things-have-just-gotten-worse.106697/). It's been about 6 months since I wrote that thread. Things have just gotten worse. In January, I finally told my doctor about my some of my medical problems and he referred me to a cardiologist and an neuromuscular doctor. The neuromuscular doctor didn't really help me at all and even denied my problems. She seemed really judgmental too. Ever since then my muscles have gotten so much smaller and weaker. I'm meeting with the cardiologist in two days but I doubt anything will change. A few weeks ago I saw most of my friends graduate college. This wouldn't be a problem if I wasn't supposed to graduate this year. It's making me feel even more depressed then I already am. Are things ever going to change? Am I just going to stay like this? I hate this so much

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it's really awful how existing here can very easily get worse, it does sound so tiring what you are going through, I'm not even surprised that the doctor was so dismissive and insensitive. But anyway I wish you the best, I get that it certainly can be so horrible feeling trapped in a situation that you hate.