I live in supported housing. I am only living there because I didn't really have anywhere viable to live. A member of staff said this to another worker in front of me yesterday. I have consistently said since I've been there that I'm the most depressed I've ever been. Clearly no one was listening. I have been planning my suicide and managed to source all materials whilst living there. They're not the reason I'm killing myself but it's things like this that are little reinforcers that I am doing the right thing. Ever feel like people quite literally aren't listening?
People are against you. They are out to get you. Don't take it as a reinforcement. Are they assholes? Yeah but they deserve to die for it not you. You deserve to die only because of you. ITs your decision and no one else should be claimant to any credit in that. Only you choose when you are free
Brokensaddle
Experienced
- Sep 28, 2020
- 200
I almost ended up in supported housing. I heard it's really shit. I don't those people care about the people they are meant to care for. It's just a job for them, ordinary vulnerable peoples life's don't matter. I'm sorry you're having to go through this.
People are evil. They are always making off hand comments like these and we should not pay them any mind.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 45,760
It's a fact that people often don't listen, it's best to just take no notice of them if they say things that are not true. Other people cannot ever fully understand what we go through as we all experience life differently, as humans we are all alone.
StolenLife
Warlock
- Sep 19, 2022
- 740
The majority of people are simply not worth it. Even if you had been showing obvious signs like crying non stop or self harm they would have complained that you are annoying or negative. You know what happened in your life and your ilness is real and valid, not that it's a nice position to be in.
I wouldn't care too much about them if I were you, leave them be in their ignorant little bubble and focus on yourself and the route you want your life to go in, whether that be recovery or ctb.
I wouldn't care too much about them if I were you, leave them be in their ignorant little bubble and focus on yourself and the route you want your life to go in, whether that be recovery or ctb.
Well up untill 2 months ago, I used to think 90% people are good and its the 10% that are evil who are perpetuating the lie of everyone being evil and I used to say this to everyone. Now, having unmasked evil behind all the faces I have dealt with over the past 4 years, I can say like 1% people are good. All others are evil given the chance and power to be so. So, fuck people
theboy
Illuminated
- Jul 15, 2022
- 3,404
True. Its a spectacular kind of evil that would create life just to ruin it.
hopelessgirl
Mage
- Oct 12, 2021
- 536
Wow shit I'm so sorry for you.... that's something quite harsh of someone to just say about you when you're literally having one of the worst symptoms: planning your suicide. She is clearly incompetent. Why can't she see this? I wish you had people around you who listened to you and saw what you're going through. You've tried to tell them and they didn't listen.
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ForeverLonely82
Experienced
- Dec 22, 2021
- 220
People who have never suffered understand what the person is going through. The vast majority of people here have been through exactly what you're experiencing. I, myself, have been told "You're not depressed, you just want attention" many time and that's just not true. They don't know us or what we do. Most of the time I sit here on my PC, in my head too much, longing for youth when I had some people to chat with or remembeing when I had places to go and things to do. Now that I suffer anxiety and panic disorder, lost friends and places to go can't help but feel and be depressed. No one has to right to assume how you feel. That come from you and they can chose to accept it or not, but not judge you for it.
Suicidebydeath
No chances to be happy - dead inside
- Nov 25, 2021
- 3,558
I'm sorry about this. Humans are really ignorant, I don't know what people think depressed looks like. My doctor said the same thing to me, I've been suicidal for a very long time on and off. At least with my doctor, I give them the excuse of them thinking of clinical depression, and also not really knowing much of my life, but with the PTSD and suicidal feelings I still think I'm pretty depressed. I'm usually more motivated when I'm happier or in love (and now with the mirtazapine), so I probably have depression as well.
My family literally driving me to suicide but I don't expect them to understand, they're the worst.
My family literally driving me to suicide but I don't expect them to understand, they're the worst.
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hamvil
Wizard
- Aug 29, 2022
- 650
A "friend" once advised me that in friendships other people want to have light conversations, not things that require them to put too much effort. When faced with problems like depression the first line of defense for such people is to try to cheer you up with canned sentences. The smart ones will quote someone fancy like maybe Oscar Wilde, not to help you but just to show up that they know a writer. After that, they tell you to seek professional help, which translated means: what you are telling me is too much for me to process, please bother someone else.
It'sMyLife
Little bundles of futile hope we are
- Apr 18, 2020
- 172
Remember- it's your life and your own personal hell. None of us asked to be created by some supreme being or asked to be born. You owe nothing to whatever individuals you happen to encounter in this meaningless existence. Nor do you have to interact with them. I suppose it is possible that person thought they were defending you on some level and just don't understand depression and, more specifically, you as a unique person. Of course I wasn't there but some things we have to let roll off of our backs. Life does seem to throw random and fairly constant problems at us. I'm tired of dealing with the crap myself all of the time for sure. In the end , we're all on our own though and have the right to depart this useless existence at a time of our choosing rather than languish on until our bodies give out. I hope you have a better day today. Sending you good vibes over towards the UK
rationaltake
I'm rocking it - in another universe
- Sep 28, 2021
- 2,704
I'm so sorry. I know those places can be hell. I live in a similar sort of set-up for older people but luckily there are no staff living on site.
I've followed your posts and I'm really sad about your situation. I wonder if you'd accept help if it was available?
I've followed your posts and I'm really sad about your situation. I wonder if you'd accept help if it was available?
I'm sorry if you are also in a challenging living circumstance. I'm on this site because I seeked help...lol...I had medication induced mania and psychosis for 15 and a half years. I sought out help and that is what happened. The effects such as the cognitive difficulties it has left me with etc are the reason I'm here. Thanks for following my posts btw. It's nice to feel that someone cares x
rationaltake
I'm rocking it - in another universe
- Sep 28, 2021
- 2,704
That really is so hard. Would you like to move? Or would that not help at this stage?
I'm sorry this happened to you. No one deserves the have their experiences discredited, and you ought to feel supported, especially is supported housing.
I'm the opposite – many professionals believe I'm depressed, even though I show few signs. It's so hard for them to fathom that a competent person might wish for death and escape from this hellish world without some form of clinical madness or pathology. I get what you mean about nobody listening.
Feelings are on the inside, and there's largely no blood test or x-ray to diagnose them. Only you know what you are going through. Your experiences and pain are valid, no matter what anyone else says.
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