R
Raichu
An old head on young shoulders
- Jan 11, 2024
- 103
Yesternight I reconnected with my ex through a fake account. We chatted for a while and I asked about her ex, which is me. She said that wanted to do a double suicide with her (which I never asked her to do) and that I was a pedo. Well I have been visiting a psychiatrist for my depression and he confirmed that what I have is the early stages of OCD and I have OCPD. I told her the truth, but seems like she perceived it otherwise and thought of me as a child predator whereas in reality I attempted three times last year in the fear of being one. And my psychiatrist and the counselor confirmed that I am not. I would ask for reassurance to her time and again. And I really thought she understood. She broke up by ghosting me. It just really hurts and hurts too bad that to think I was a burden to her and she thought of me as one of those.... I feel there's no hope for me. How am I to live after knowing that someone thinks I am a pedo... My medications for OCD and depression are still ongoing.. But this incident yesternight, it broke me to the core... I just can't take it anymore