sharing a little bit of my story

[readytoleavenow]

Sorry with the bad english i`m from brazil.

Well, i have lived a very good life until them. Have suffered with bullying when i was a kid but when I grow up it seems that all was resolved. I was a musician until last year having a litlle bit of success in my city and could pay the bills just with music. It was a peacefull and good life. Last year I got broke, have to leave my apartment, my girlfriend left me and lost all my jobs. Have to start everything a regular job but with little to no experience since i was been living just by music, have to move to my grandparents house. Everything have changed.
I was giving life a chance one year, but nothing seens to get back to a normal state. No one in the family respects me, they see me as failure and a coward. Planning to get some money and ctb soon, just get enough money to make a last trip to a place beautifull where in the past i had great moments and make the ctb with SN in a hotel room in this place. Just sharing a little of how i get here. I`m glad to find some place where we can talk openly about the choice to leave and don`t been seem as a coward. No one want to get in that point of life, but in my way of view things is the only way to get some peace again. We don`t choose to born but we can choose to leave.

Much love, hope all of you find peace no matter what path you choose.

 

[Harasaki]

Hey there, fellow brazilian here.
I'm sorry this happened to you, musicians in Brazil are unfortunately not very respected, also having to correspond to familly expectation even though we never asked to be born is just terrible.
But I hope you can at least make an awesome trip and also find peace someway.
Abraços, amigo!

 

[realjunes]

Sorry with the bad english i`m from brazil.

Well, i have lived a very good life until them. Have suffered with bullying when i was a kid but when I grow up it seems that all was resolved. I was a musician until last year having a litlle bit of success in my city and could pay the bills just with music. It was a peacefull and good life. Last year I got broke, have to leave my apartment, my girlfriend left me and lost all my jobs. Have to start everything a regular job but with little to no experience since i was been living just by music, have to move to my grandparents house. Everything have changed.
I was giving life a chance one year, but nothing seens to get back to a normal state. No one in the family respects me, they see me as failure and a coward. Planning to get some money and ctb soon, just get enough money to make a last trip to a place beautifull where in the past i had great moments and make the ctb with SN in a hotel room in this place. Just sharing a little of how i get here. I`m glad to find some place where we can talk openly about the choice to leave and don`t been seem as a coward. No one want to get in that point of life, but in my way of view things is the only way to get some peace again. We don`t choose to born but we can choose to leave.

Much love, hope all of you find peace no matter what path you choose.

Hi Ready. I am glad you found us on this forum. I can promise you there is not a single thought or a single experience you have had, that some members of this forum have experienced and feel. So, I encourage you to read everything you can on this forum. Take the time to read and consider and relate to others who feel as you do.
It is strangely beneficial and loving and caring, exactly the opposite one would think before they come
to the forum. Anyone here would be glad to chat with you, or respond to any posts you make when you feel
up to doing so, as you did here. Welcome, my new friend.

 

[readytoleavenow]

Thanks for the support, on this forum i really don`t feel alone. I am silent planning my ctb and here i found the best way to do it when the time comes.
All I can think in this moment is what i want to do in my last days.
Still having some fear on what to expect from the dark side of the moon, my wish is to find the end of my counsciouness or eternal peace.
But when we cross the line is just a mistery for everyone.
Legal ver brasileiros aqui, nem para todos tudo é carnaval hehhe
Abraço amigo @Harasaki quando quiser manda um pm se quiser contar tua história!
Hugs my friends!

 

[MaybeMaybeKnot]

Sorry with the bad english i`m from brazil.

Well, i have lived a very good life until them. Have suffered with bullying when i was a kid but when I grow up it seems that all was resolved. I was a musician until last year having a litlle bit of success in my city and could pay the bills just with music. It was a peacefull and good life. Last year I got broke, have to leave my apartment, my girlfriend left me and lost all my jobs. Have to start everything a regular job but with little to no experience since i was been living just by music, have to move to my grandparents house. Everything have changed.
I was giving life a chance one year, but nothing seens to get back to a normal state. No one in the family respects me, they see me as failure and a coward. Planning to get some money and ctb soon, just get enough money to make a last trip to a place beautifull where in the past i had great moments and make the ctb with SN in a hotel room in this place. Just sharing a little of how i get here. I`m glad to find some place where we can talk openly about the choice to leave and don`t been seem as a coward. No one want to get in that point of life, but in my way of view things is the only way to get some peace again. We don`t choose to born but we can choose to leave.

Much love, hope all of you find peace no matter what path you choose.

Thank you for trusting us with your story. I'm sorry that you've had to look for SS, but I'm glad you found us. You are among friends and kindred spirits. We get to choose when.

 

[Harasaki]

Thanks for the support, on this forum i really don`t feel alone. I am silent planning my ctb and here i found the best way to do it when the time comes.
All I can think in this moment is what i want to do in my last days.
Still having some fear on what to expect from the dark side of the moon, my wish is to find the end of my counsciouness or eternal peace.
But when we cross the line is just a mistery for everyone.
Legal ver brasileiros aqui, nem para todos tudo é carnaval hehhe
Abraço amigo @Harasaki quando quiser manda um pm se quiser contar tua história!
Hugs my friends!

Não dá pra te mandar mensagem ainda, só libera depois que postar 5 vezes aqui. Mas quando liberar eu mando com certeza :)

 

[readytoleavenow]

Beleza não sabia, logo libera : )

 

[Jean4]

Your English is fine. Welcome, and I do understand how you are feeling.